I mean, at the time of typing this I'll know for sure whether or not I've snagged a place tomorrow, but even then the stress won't be over as I have to schedule movers, pack my stuff, make sure I'm packing the right stuff together and not accidentally packing too early (no access to much-needed items) or too late (awkwardness with movers), get to the apartment alright, unpack everything, then make a list and obtain all the items that are needed but I don't have because I shared them with my room mates all this time, and then I gotta get internet set up, figure out a good cleaning schedule because I'll have my own living space, find out exactly when rent is due, when garbage is taken out, and all the other little details I didn't ask before because I was so eager to snag this place because the pricing and location and perfect for me and yet the entire time I'm nervous as hell because I haven't moved places in over five years so it's like leaving home all over again except worse because don't actually want to leave this time.

And that's all IF I get the place I'm betting on! If I don't, I'll have to keep apartment hunting but it's hard because my limit is $600 and I live in a major city and no car and I would love to have my own space but I could take room mates again but I don't really want to have a space again where my permanence depends on whether or not those room mates are going to sell or change the home space and anyway rent is so expensive here and the only affordable places I've found so far are either hours away in the wrong direction or want live-in babysitters (FUCK that) so then I gotta look at places and judge whether or not they're safe or am I going to be stuck with a bad land lord/neighbors and how will I be able to afford food or internet if the rent is too high or be able to live my own life when it takes so long to ride the bus to work and geaaaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuugggghhh

I hate moving.