You are not alone on that department

It happens to me, a lot of times
My mind knows what it needs to do and wants to do it
but my body is likeee....maybe later

Clean areas, yup my room is like a mess right now

I kinda try to move stuff here and there each week to make it not look that messy

STILL
not alone ther buddy

I cheer for you, and that some little will and motivation may be able to do the trick

Is what I must try myself as well

since right now I am kinda going throught that

The hardest part is like, I'll sometimes be able to do half of a task, but then not the rest of it?
Like I'll do laundry just fine but then break down and physically be unable to fold it despite being such an easy step
Or I'll start cleaning and do well, but as I sweep things up and put stuff to the side to organize, I end up with a pile of mess I can't make myself take care of.

Thankfully I'm living with my partner who can step in to help when I'm unable to function,
Though we're both dealing with poor mental health, so it can be tough sometimes

Sometimes all I need is someone to get up and go with me to do a task,
or have my partner hand me my drawing tablet
(it's right by my desk, completely in reach, but the first hurdle can be so difficult)

But other days I can have everything in hand and still just look at it like,
I want to do this, but I just can't.

It's frustrating because I can plan ahead to give myself time,
I can do all the steps right to get me working,
I can have other people help,
but it's so hit or miss when those things will actually work or not.

All advice is just "Find what works and do that!" but it's just like, what works one day doesn't work the next.
I've made a lot of progress on some things, I have some good habits to keep myself in a good head space to be able to function,
but some days I just have to accept I'm not getting anything done.
Just try and survive, make sure I eat even if I don't want to, and hope tomorrow is better.

YUP
thats pretty much what happens to me

I totally understand that

and it has happened to me several times...specially on sundays

Like when I didnt finish stuff so I say
I must do it that day

Then
I wake up late
I go to lunch
takes me some time

Return home
I kinda stay quiet for a while watching videos
then its night
I cant get myself to do the thing

I actually wish I live with a parner, like we were on the same clases together and such
So he could be likeee...my will to do stuff
working together!

I almost never really lose appetite (good, or that could not end well)

Maybe one day
we may find something that works almost all the time
for now I think that moving forward when we can actually do is the way to go
and surviving as you say
so the day will actually be better

not the best Idea, but the one that works right now

Sadly that happens to you, cause you clearly deserve better than that!
maybe one day
we both find what we need in order for this to never happen again

Do you ever get the thing where you have so much to do and you look at it and just... can't even start?

I had that in my last year of highschool so bad I had to drop precal.
Like I knew if I just started to work there would be less and I would have some done, I could tackle it in parts, but instead I just looked at it, got so distressed I just laid down and cried for a while. It was... pretty disheartening because I was great at math and physics, but the new teacher for 12th grade just didn't teach in a way I could handle on top of a much larger workload.

It happens occasionally for art too, mostly back when a lot of personal things were really hitting me hard and I wasn't in a good headspace.
I can usually push through that, though drawing in that state takes at least twice as long because it's so much mental effort to force myself to draw.

Just be careful, having someone you do things with can be a two-edged blade with motivation.
If one of us doesn't want to do something, we usually both just don't do it.
Just a cautionary warning.


I have hope, I know depression and anxiety is something that never goes away fully,
but as long as I'm alive I can work towards a better future.

Some advice I ran into, that I tell a lot of my other friends when they're in dark places is
It will be okay in the end,
if it's not okay, it's not the end.

Now thats a feeling I get everytime

It is weird because I am more productive while constantly busy
but when I get a rest, and the I get more work
the more stuff I get...its likee
naah my body wont
unless there is like 1 day left to get it done

And if I have several things for that next day
thats a day I wont be sleeping at all


Indeed
this is not the end
cause it would feel like a pathetic ending
and I DONT WANT THAT

must keep going and get better

Oh that’s me constantly.
I’m okay with commissions and such, because I enjoy art
and I like to have a quick turn around time, but back in school?
The only motivation I had was last minute deadlines.

I’ve been able to find my own motiations for things these days
Like language study on my own time, because I want to, not HAVE to study
But in a school setting?
Unless something was due the next day, I’d be doing anything but that.

It was like that even when I was taking Japanese as a class?
I loved it and I loved writing my weekly journals...
but there wasn’t a force on earth that could make me do homework before it was due.

Are you sure our souls arent connected by some unexplained Yeen destiny?
Thats all of me

I always made sure to get my works done and in time
but I always made them at the last moment possible

If I knew I had another day
I would spend that day NOT doing the thing.

The other day a friend heard something that sounded kinda stupid
but we sat down and thought about it....and it was pretty much like this

So he heard someone saying "I am interested in drawing and I want do learn, but when I have drawings classes I just see it as an obligation an I wont do it"

It is interesting how Homework/Obligation can shape someone's desire to do something, right?