yeah ok

i think this is what i want [Null Value] to look like

she is a slime crystal deer, although she changes her body plan a lot to suit her mood

the long trailing limbs can be worn as decorations or turned into tentacles/giant hands/wings/whatever

the eye count and location is inconsistent and changes constantly as old eyes blink and crystalize shut and new ones crack and split open

her legs crystalize as she walks and then melt as she picks them off the floor. parts of her constantly drip, usually crystalizing and reabsorbing before falling off entirely. little flecks of solid and liquid crystal drips off her now and then, though.

she lives in the City in the Middle, which is basically x0 y0 z0 between all the worlds, and is where parts of worlds that escape the Void end up (parts that get consumed go to the Voidwaste instead which is Tabrix's house)

[Null Value] is the City in the Middle's World Consciousness' ground level avatar

her world was the first part to escape to the City in the Middle--or, at least, it is the oldest surviving thing. anything that might have been there before wasn't, when she ended up there, so that's being first, okay. she was one of a hundred crystal slime guardians in a great, abandoned maze, floating in the nothing, guarding the same corner of the maze for uncounted time

until she really wondered what it was like to be that other crystal slime she could see across the courtyard

and then she absorbed that slime, and all the others, and then ate the surviving chunk of the world, and become a singular thing, and then did the usual thing of subdividing herself to create a World, and her thirst for Story became the anchor through which other places could escape their World's ending and attach themselves. (not every thing that escapes the Void ends up attached to the City in the Middle, there are other safe spaces too, for example, the Tower in the Middle that the four Remnants' world-chunks attach to)

but

The City in the Middle took chunks of other World Consciousnesses and became kind of a huge mess of a whole

it basically doesn't act much on the metafictional level other than to provide a space for stories, and to prevent its own subversion/destruction

it's why the City in the Middle is so great, it's as neutral a ground as you can get without being a place for Worlds only

(because Worlds have internalized Story production, they can exist within the Nothing without concern, because their constant Story creation offsets the loss to the Void. a character only gains Story through interaction with other characters and is dependent on its World to provide vital Story functions--the Authorial Line is a compromise between character and world and that interplay is part of what makes the person a person, and without anything for your Authorial Line to connect to, you'll hemmorage Story into Nothing basically instantly. Worlds can interact with one another without a governing World above them to moderate the experiences, but any space without a governing World is inaccessible to anyone that isn't a World, at least in the legal sense. the City in the Middle provides a neutral ground that is still accessible to characters too)

(to be a World in a legal sense doesn't mean you need to have an actual Realized World inside you, but it means you are a wholly self-contained entity now. there are a lot of ways you can be a World without an internalized realized world--your Authorial Line has to basically be an active entity beyond just being a means for Story transfer, and that gives you control over your gates, which keeps you from hemorrhaging Story into the Void the second you're out there, although there is still a slow, persistant loss to the Nothing anyway. Sabby doesn't have an entire world inside of her, but she does have full control over her gates, so she can effectively "hold her breath" out in Nothing and not hemmorage Story, although she will eventually cease to exist without a new source of Story--effectively suffocating, to carry out the metaphor. a Realized World doesn't just hold its breath, it produces new oxygen in its own lungs.)

... anyway, the City in the Middle decided it was super cool to be a place where Stories happened, but a part of it wanted to be a part of it beyond being everything inside of itself, so it made a part of its insides into what it used to be

[Null Value] is the City in the Middle's ground level avatar, the only thing actually truly native to it (created wholly from itself, rather than from parts from other Worlds), and the only entity that has a typical World-character relationship with the City in the Middle (is wholly controlled by the World Consciousness)

despite being its avatar [Null Value] as a ground-level entity is only sometimes aware of what she is, because it'd be really annoying if everyone was always acting like she was super important. for the most part she's... a crystal slime deer. that wanders around. and does some things. she's a poorly defined thing on the ground floor, sloppily built, with inconsistent gates that make it hard for her to maintain connections with other characters persistantly, and with a poorly designed Identity, meaning who she actually is and how she acts changes frequently based on the World's mood

because she's the City in the Middle's ground-level character, she's got a long enough line she can go to other worlds if she wants, and she can do that easily since the City in the Middle is adjacent to every other world in the metasetting

which is a ton of words to say

this is my fursona now

she has no backstory, and that is the metaficitional backstory to justify her having no backstory

she has no set personality or Identity, and that's also supported by her identity

i always

always give huge long backstories to all my characters, and it's made it so hard to have a character that just represented ME

but now???

now i made a character WHOSE BACKSTORY IS THAT SHE'S MY FURSONA AND SHE CAN BE LIKE OR DO WHATEVER I WANT

THERE

I BEAT MY OWN SYSTEM

TAKE THAT