okay, longue explation in comming..

- first, if you are not interested by all the things which made me draw this, don't waste you time. it's longue, complex and personal to explain. it's about my sonas and what i have suddenly realized. and how and why.

- second, as said above, it's complicated to explain already in my own language, even more in english. so forgive me if i am confuse or if i make psitaikes, my english is not perfect.

Okay, recently, i have saw this great character and her ref sheet by  fortuna
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27888214/
and i have read the story written by  dragontalon
here : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27756619/

i have absolutely love the concept and have a crush for Androir dragons, or AnDragon. especially Coell <3

naturally, i have thinked : "i adore the concept of Andragon! oh! i will draw a AnDragon of Drayke!"

here, that's the point which make me suddenly realized something.
you, each of us as his/her own way with their sona, a personnal story with. in my opinion, event if we don't understand, or don't agree with how people manage their sona, it's okay, with have to respect it.
In my case, i Have Drayke the Ebony dderg since the begining, when i am arrived on FA and start to draw as furry artist... as many of you, i created his design myself, for my own reason. and since, he has been always with me. have evolved and changed his design, of course, but that's it the point, i have him for more than ten years now.

and one day, Nero showed up. as my second sona and the brother of Drayke. with the time, he took more importance, till he got as important than Drayke.

but i was not satified... something was wrong, but unable to find what.
a part of me was annoyed to have Two fursonas (or dragons-selves) but i was unable to make a choice. i had to choose one and left the other one?
problem, as i said, i was with Drayke for more than ten years, i met and rp with my mate with him, i am mainly known as Drayke, don't wanted to leave him... but Nero was closer to my real-being, so don't wanted to leave him either...
a big dilema as you can imagine.

and what i have said before happen. and i realized.
recently i have turn Drayke as Kobold or raptor, and now i wanted to turn him as Andragon. and for some reason the andragon concept made a echo in my mind. fitting very well to Drayke.

and here we are, i draw this for express what i feel, Even if it still confuses. Drayke is what i would like to be, he has been a protection, a shield, a guide and of course a part of me, my most silly, confident and naughty sides.
Nero is my real being, who i am and my most weak, fragile and sensitive part.

so, what it means jnow you would ask?
Drayke will not desapear for sure, it will still there, fooling around, be naughty and silly, but consider than Nero is the real me.
and expect to see maybe more drawing of drayke as Android dragon, i really love the concept =)

for finish and for reassured people which care about me. don't worry, i fine, still confuse and disturbed, but i guess that i passed through a important step for understand and know myself better, beside, i have talked with my mate  mainbrain about all that and i have her support, she make me feel happy and better.

hope it will help me to draw better and to find my true own style, because i still unsatisfact with my current style, what do you think?

thanks you very mush to all the people which have had the patience to read till this point. see you later for more drawings =)