I'm a Pansexual Genderqueer living in a DiD System. This is my truth. It's not easy, it sucks dealing with large scale physical body dysphoria. I hate that I don't have a dick and that I'm stuck in a system where it wouldn't be right to switch my gender. We try to find work arounds sometimes. I can dress "more masculine," but it ultimately is still a girl dressing a boy. Sometimes I crave so much more at least androgyny but I can't. I Love my System, I Love that I can at least exist in digital and traditional drawings, because if it wasn't for these drawings what would I have regarding my own reality? I just sometimes wished I wasn't sharing a body with 10+ other people.

I am SO GRATEFUL for my Partner Snow King, in all of his infinite understanding, compassion, patience, and Love. I am so glad that with him I can be 100% authentically me and as long as I don't look down and realize "oh yah I'm a girl," I can for a little while believe I am just... me.

---Asher Goldenmane 2018.6.10