the pain... of what was said to me still haunts me to this day... it hurt a lot... and it hurt more as she pushed me away... and asked me to leave... it was the the hardest thing i ever had to do... i feel my hart squirm in pain every time i think about that day... and when i was asked as i left... to stay... despite how much she had pushed me out of her life... and how much she did not want me... but did selfishly try... .... i cryed for days on end... i shut down... feeling the worlds what apone what was left of my hart... ... ... this was only the beginning...