I miss Gordon-John sometimes.

When i was creating Gordon-John i made him looking like a perfect guy i want to know. He got character which i dreamed to have as a teen: A person who relies only on himself, knows how to move on without support, does not attached strongly to others. A person, who does not feel bright emotions except for anger and hatred that help him fight the world around him. The one who thinks of himself at first. He doesn't spread his feelings and problems, always answer "i'm ok" to the question "How are you?" and never tells his real thoughts and pain which he always hiding and trying don't care about it. He doesn't have any dreams, goals of life, he just wants to exist in peace and harmony with himself.
And now i really feel him so close, all his philosophy of living. I tried to cross him out of my life, but maybe it's worth giving him a new chance and a new story that will not put pressure on my past, which I gradually erase from my life?


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