Ugh.
uuuugghhhh.
Okay.
So.

Shit's hard right now. I know it can get better though.
With my group therapy every day and a week into my new medication, some things are just. changing. And it's confusing and scary and it's really upsetting.
But I know it'll get better. I know this ship I'm on is going somewhere good, it's just a little hard to see right now. I'll get there though.

-sigh-
like. All that aside, I've fought with my anxiety/obsessive behavior for a very long time. And whatever I'm doing right now is... kinda letting it go. Or minimizing it or muting it or dulling it. I think. I've been on meds before that totally zombify me, but that's not what's happening here. I'm just... releasing this part of myself that feels so intertwined with who I am as a person and I don't really know how to function without it. Though today I think I at least made the realization that despite that, I'm still me. I still have my own unique identity beyond just what my mental issues decide for me.

So yeah. I'm a work in progress. It's strange and weird and hard, but It's all in transition.

....
It's also officially canon in the Starbabby lore compendium that Haley has little parakeets made of starlight.