Personal artwork.

I've been really lost on my Art lately.
I have quite a few commissions I need to get done, and I think once I finish those I will take a break from taking on any more, till I figure out what I want from myself.

Ever since some bullshit drama on twitter, due to another artist basically saying that everything I do is unoriginal, Or how I copy other artist, or how nothing is my own, and how I dont have my own style, Really hit a nerve somehow. ?
Even though I know I have my own style, I know I'm INSPIRED by other artist, but I'm not ripping anyone off. And I certainly dont copy anyone, because I dont want to do to others what I wouldnt want someone to do to me, you know?
So even though I know everything they said was bullshit, it has caused a little voice in the back of my head to question everything I'm drawing.

"Has this been done before already?"
"Are you ripping off someones stuff without realizing?"
"Are you copying and not even know it??"
"You drew this already, 100 times"
"Draw something new"
"BUT WHAT"

Like I love to draw what I draw, but now it's like...I dont know. Nothing feels personal anymore.
I feel really out of touch with my art, it doesnt even feel like me.
And I used to do nothing but draw, that was how I escaped, that was how I let out my feelings, How I sorted shit out. And now....Now I just feel like I'm drawing nothing. Or maybe I just put too much pressure on it- I dont know anymore.

Thats why I've sort of moved away into Fursuit stuff. Simply because theres not as much pressure. Its easier to experiment and do more things with it. Not to mention it pays my bills better but its more because I really enjoy doing it. It's fun, I work harder, I can do more. It gets to see the world, while my art just site on a crappy site, where no one is even on anymore, and barely gets noticed. Which is fine, I dont want to be popular or anything that was never my goal.

I dont know anymore. I feel like a part of myself is dieing, even though I dont want it too.
Maybe I just need to work some stuff out within myself before taking up art again.

I'm just really over it.,