The song that keeps playing in my head when I'm anxious: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnpzaFV4bk0

Holding hands over his head as in it's all becoming too much too handle.

This is the best way I can describe how I feel the majority of the time following this study. This last class was a 3 week class about statistics with far too high expectations. I felt like it was expected of me to already know the basics of statistics when there rarely ever was any need to use statistics in this entire bachelor biology study. Today was the exam and despite how much I worked for it, I failed.
There was just too much material, the lectures didn't explain anything, only a mess of numbers each time as if I should understand how Rstudio works from the beginning. I read through the literature instead, but half the exam was about a part that was poorly explained in the book.
It didn't help that there was a assignment in Rstudio that we had to do for a grade. I couldn't study through last weekend because the anxiety of that assignment kept eating away at me. In the end the group I was lucky to join did pretty much everything. I feel like shit about that, I didn't understand it myself. At least I don't have to redo that. But than came the exam.
I'm tired of being less than any other student, this study has to end. It makes me like I'm less than any other human being, I'm tired of being trampled on.

13th March is the retake, but I also have to finish some really odd assignment before the end of next week. I hope I can at least get through this be it being less than any other student.
This is the 5th year I'm doing this 3 year biology bachelor study. It has to end!