well thnx  wolfmaster for the encouragement: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2116225/ ,but this was made as a resolution drawing, a way to admit to something and get over it.

over the period of almost 3 year i hated myself ,i couldn't really live with myself since i always thought my life wasn't worth much the only reason for it was B/c of a crime i committed 3 years ago ,this crime caused some of my family to disowned me , that in itself made it all painful , i always thought i never deserve my life.

the only reason why i lived was because my parent did all they could to prevent me from going to jail. so i forced myself to live if i committed suicide, the effort my parent took to assure my safety would of been worthless. i made one stupid mistake ,making another one wouldn't helped out ,beside it's something i promised myself, "that i won't make another stupid mistake ever again".

but i guess all this time i was making another stupid mistake ,any parent would always want the best for their children including their happiness , living your life without an intend to live for yourself or for happiness isn't living its just hell , thinking it like that , my parent would never want that. but it was mainly a good friend who taught me that as well that "being alive means you deserve your life"and with this i'm moving on , i won't forgetting the pain i cost from my own action , but i won't live in the past anymore. Beside , we all make mistakes , rather it's something small or the worst , but understanding what it is , as well as having to take responsibility, and to move on ,is what's important about any mistake.

with this i feel a lot lighter all of a sudden , and of course there's still stuff and life problem going on but at least i tackle one of the worst of it. i think i can move on now to live how my mother and everyone else wants me to =3 for te ones who do know and stayed with me , thank you all so much =3

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