Just been talking with Cameron about how shit out job treats us, and in that conversation, he expressed his contempt with how shit the world is to me in general. And tbh, as tired and devoid of passionate anger as I am towards that fact, I still hold a lot of anger and resentment and contempt.

NULL represents a lot of my 'bad'; the detrimental effects my mental illness has on me, and my anger and hatred towards how cruel the world is to me and those I love.

Don't get me wrong, things could be a lot worse, for real. I understand my privileges, but that doesn't make up for all the ways life screws with us.

Fuck idk