I want to take a good picture of this later so bad

I've been thinking for a long time about the forms of me that people have wanted and expected overtime, and how...none of them fit right. And how chasing those ideal images and trying so hard to be this or that, especially in terms of gender performance, has only brought me stress and further identity issues than I already had. I'm still trying hard to find who I am and really, really battling the urge to become the Me that I think this person or that person wants to see.

Formed while listening to one of my old favs, Gone by JR JR https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nq0mpgHNapc