Apparently, many people want or need a regular structure in society to find contentment in their lives. But some people maybe don't want to depend on such a structure. Society has made me feel guilty and ashamed of my existence because I never felt comfortable with any structure and because I didn't want to live the way other people expected it from me. I was raised to think that I have to live to please other people and that if I don't establish a "normal" life, I am unworthy for existence and a burden for society. But it's discrimination. We only discriminate in others what we are also discriminating within ourselves. All is a reflection of the self and the thoughts and judgements are only real as long as we believe in them.