I feel exactly the same, you're not alone *hug*

I do hope someone can be used by Him to show what is true and give me answers to go on.

Isn't the fact that you're worked up over this about it proof that you're legitimate?

What do you mean?

Worrying you're not doing enough means your faith is sincere, right?

I don't know, bro. I think it doesn't sound like that for me.

We're only men. Of course we have our doubts. Everyone does. Even as a young Catholic, it was hard for me to get fully interested in my church, not just because of autism but because in part of lack of interest and the evil men do.
While I don't go to church too much anymore, I still have faith in the soul, the afterlife and something bigger than myself because of four things: Victor Hugo and certain authors, Cartoons/Animation, Balance, and Imagination.

And for the record, your too hard on yourself. There are Christians that are hypocrites sand horrible excuses for human beings because of theyre abuse of faith and choices, and your not one of them.

I don't know. Maybe my faith isn't enough to Him, so I don't feel anything.

I'm a Protestant by the way.

I'm not entirely sure what I want to say because I don't want to impose my worldview on you too forcefully, but I will say that we all struggle with our beliefs and I think that through this struggle we end up creating a much stronger foundation for our beliefs than before. Whatever road this leads you down, this is hopefully the first step in finding something better.

You're one of the more decent people I know, bud.

You shouldn't torture yourself, thinking you're not good enough.

Look at yourself through Heaven's eyes, not mortal ones.

Thank you.

And I will try, because I feel inside me that I am not enough to enter Heaven but I do wish. It always scares me when I have doubts and anxieties about Hell and anything after death

Don't be afraid.

Jesus himself paid for our ticket into Heaven with his life. He annulled humanity of its generalized sins.

You individually are a good guy and a gentle soul and I don't think you have anything to worry about ^_^

Just keep decent. And you'll be fine.

I will try, bro. Thank you for everything.

I do hope that God can answer me. It's not about even my dreams. It's just my questions about my faith.

Don't worry man, your not any different from anyone else out there. People struggle with sex and temptation every day. And there is no shame in that. The only lesson is to practice self control, don't have kids with someone your not planning on being with for more than 20 years. And you will be fine. Always be personally responsible with this stuff. That's it. As for everything else, don't sweat it, its hardwired into all of us.

I even don't have a mate, bro.

no need to worry man that just puts you in the same boat as most Christians in America. of course I'm biased because I quit Christianity years ago but here's a hug *fluffy huggle*

I was in the same situation- the only way I was going to be happy was to leave Christianity and build my own beliefs. It is clearly destroying you mate and ruining your life... it's a hard time for you and a big decision, but once and if you leave, things will get better... I hope you figure this out and things get better...

Hey man i know what you mean and your not alone on this. But I later realized the truth of it all so please listen, the truth this that it’s not about how Holy you or how much you read the Bible. We are not Christians because of how much good we do. We are saved by faith and not by works. No of us are good enough to make it to Heaven, we have all sinned and like in a court of law if a person is guilty of breaking the law the judge must punish him, theirs nothing he can do. The same is with God He needs to bring justice to all because He is all good.

Now here’s the Good News, though we can’t do anything to save our selfs our be holy. So if a person is guilty, but someone who is innocent pays off the fine of the crime then the judge can legally let him go. no is perfect so none can’t truly pay for there or someone else’s sin because God who is rich in grace sent His son who is perfect to take the punishment for us on that cross so that are we are free from death for the wages of sin is death. And just like in a court of law we have the choice to except that or to reject it.
So if we believe that Jesus is who he says he is, that we confess with are mouths that Jesus is Lord and we we believe in our hearts that God raised him from the dead we will be saved. God will give you a new heart that loves Him. Listen God cares much more about haveing a relationship with you then He does then your knowledge of the Bible.

Though it is important just remember that it is are faith that Jesus is who he says he is and just opening up to God. Jesus wants us to be open with us he says in his word to lay all your berdens on him and he will give you rest. It’s good to talk with other believers about this things, God can work through other people, His word, and sometimes even directly. I have this has been a blessing for you and that you can truly have peace