even with the support from everyone around you, trying to lift you up, depression still has it's way of circling around and still making you feel alone and isolated.
People who haven't experienced it, can try to understand but they never will; always secretly wondering "why can't they just get over it?" as if depression is a figment of our imaginations, as if we're just making it up as an excuse to be whatever our symptoms portray.
People who have experienced it have to fight to make sure it doesn't become a definer of who we are. Every day is a battle to make sure our disease doesn't become an excuse to not be the best we can be. Even if we don't become a rock star or an NHL player or the top rated doctor in our country, doesn't mean we aren't stars of our own lives... but it's hard to realize that when you're trapped under layers of this dysfunctional mindset.
A lot of us let it control us and we let it destroy our lives. The rest of us have to fight nonstop to make sure we never sink that low.
It's a constant battle and it's exhausting. It doesn't seem fair that we have to try so much harder, with so much less to work with. Less energy, less motivation, less optimism, less drive.
We lack these tools and are still expected to function just as well as everyone else, and if we don't, we fail and sink down to the depths of the societal ladder. Some of us are lucky and have family or friend support systems. Others aren't and don't.
Today has been a hard day.
I'm trying not to let it get to me too much.
I didn't get out of bed until close to 3 pm. I didn't shower until close to 5. I didn't do a lot of what I wanted to do today but y'know what I did do?
I packed more of my room up (getting ready to move)
I did end up showering
I even made myself dinner (scrambled eggs but it still counts)
those are tiny victories, but I'm going to take them and run with them.
Today might not have been what I wanted it to be; my disease may have won this battle.
But I'm still here and trying; my disease will lose this war.
Who's with me?
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Of course I am with you, as are my wife and daughter. I'm proud of your accomplishments today, little sis. Also, your emotive art is beautiful as always (love the lighting in particular =).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7vS4z6ngQo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t99KH0TR-J4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkGGi_uUaPc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gAjR4_CbPpQ
(a few songs from my wife and I that we have used to help push forward through internal struggles =)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7vS4z6ngQo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t99KH0TR-J4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkGGi_uUaPc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gAjR4_CbPpQ
(a few songs from my wife and I that we have used to help push forward through internal struggles =)
I'm here to talk if you ever need someone, I'm so proud of you and all victories you achieve whether they seem small or not, they are still victories none the less. You're such a beautiful soul and you manage to capture your emotion in your work so well, this piece is gorgeous, Coffae. Take the time you need but don't let it consume you, I know that sometimes even mustering up the will to climb out of bed is exhausting and doesn't seem worth it but it is, even just stepping foot outside for a smoothie or packing one more box is an achievement and a middle finger to depression. You are a wonderful person and every conversation is always a delight. I'll be sending you positive vibes today and if you need anything I'm just a text away.
You don't run a mile all in one step, you take smaller steps one after the other. You start slow, you pace yourself. Eventually you'll speed up, take wider strides. You meet turns in your path, see people fall behind and rise above you, you might stumble, or fall. You may have to get back up, start over again, slowly. But you never give up, and in the end when you cross the finish line you are stronger for the little battles you've faced.
Every victory is important. Every inch that you crawl forward despite the pain, the doubt, the feeling of loss and isolation--every inch is important. Some days, just holding your own ground is important. My wife has fought with severe bipolar in all the 20 years I have known her--and sometimes it's a struggle. That's why it is so important to cherish the good times, making happy memories to help us at our lowest points. Celebrate those successes, hon. If you moved forward even a little--you won.
Thank you so much for this, I really needed it even though I didn't know I did. I've been having all down days recently (about a month or so), but it's good to look at the small victories in everyday life. I've been in my war for close to 13 years now and everyday is a struggle, I just have to dig deep and keep going. This is really inspirational so I'm going to try my best today even if it's hard.
Beautifully drawn by the way ^^"
Beautifully drawn by the way ^^"
Depression is an awful thing to suffer with, because you do have those good days of being able to do a ton of stuff... but then you have those awful days that cripple you to the point of not being able to do anything.
But you are right about the showering and making dinner parts. They are victories we have during those days. Small ones, but they are victories none the less.
You're strong, Coffae. Don't forget that, alright?
But you are right about the showering and making dinner parts. They are victories we have during those days. Small ones, but they are victories none the less.
You're strong, Coffae. Don't forget that, alright?
it's definitely hard, especially when you see other people going about their lives so effortlessly in areas where it's such a monumental struggle for you. That being said though, as long as we can appreciate whatever little victories we can get, we'll make it through eventually ;v;
I'm doing my best <3 thank you!
I'm doing my best <3 thank you!
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