Swearing and ranting ahead, but the short version for those who can't be bothered;

Made after a crappy time, I hope to do a better one, time will tell.

The long version-
Honestly wants to burn this because lets be honest...

Compared to past works, this is a serious step down and sure, it was last month (not that this month is much better as I'm barely 1/5 done, I can't even get yet to 2/5 among other things), and this was also after a few trauma inducing events and...

Well this is me trying to get back into things and this is also a result of trying too hard and still fucking up 5 ways from sunday, and 2 additional ways for added measure.

I'm really torn because I don't want to even post this shit, I'll probably put it in scraps, but I guess to try and force myself to re-do this into something far less shitty. It also stings because I went to a lot of trouble to get referneces for this, but that's just it...with art in general.

It's one thing to try and even consider what processes an artist may have gone through to get to a piece of art, but more times than not people are solely concerned about the final product and fuck everything else.

I'd normally just shut my mouth up about this at this stage and yet I can either regret ranting about that or regret shutting up about these kinds of things entirely only for it to flare up later.

That and perhaps I may as fucking well since I'm a fuckup and I can only unfuck things, assuming I don't burn out or something else.