I'm not really enlightened yet, but I can feel that I'm coming more and more close to "it"... It's a very subtle feeling and it really feels like ultimate freedom... But I still have a lot personal problems to overcome. My biggest problem is my phobia of being judged and humiliated... It's an old trauma that keeps me from really being free. I had a lot time to question myself though, lately, and I realized that this strong fear of being judged and humiliated seemed to be subconsciously present in my whole family, and I was just very sensitive to it, and I felt its burden all the time. Maybe it's something like a karmic connection that got passed on over the generations. I've met some people who showed me a completely different perspective of life. Maybe one day, I will be able to use this knowledge to free myself from this karmic connection. I made a lot process already and every day it's getting more easy to let go!