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It's that time of year again isn't it?! I've been seeing people updating all their galleries or blogs with their year charts. I was pretty scared thinking I didn't draw SHIT this year and nothing memorable for sure. Surprisingly I was wrong! After reviewing each month I found a drawing in each that I did really adore and I'm glad to have made. It was a wonderful thing to go back and remind myself that despite the hardships, artwork is always my anchor.
I thought 2015 was a dramatically hard year for me. Shade's passing, being alienated from communities I loved, losing some of my best friends, and to top it off baseless harassment? It honestly was a horrific note to end the year on. I was terrified to start 2016. I didn't think I could honestly go on living at that point. I spent the next few months in a state of like... living paralysis. I functioned at the bare minimum each day just to get it over with. I just didn't want to be alive any more. Six months of that nonsense and Prov and I decided to try and seek out further treatments for me due to the fact I'd begun to reflect to self harm and entertaining thoughts of it again. It took another few months but finally we managed to get a doctor to see me and help us out. There was a bit of trial and error, but overall it seems to be going well.
This was my first year without my beloved Shade. I miss him every single day. Some days more than most. My heart breaks just imagining the fact that it's been past a whole year now that he's been gone.... But he was such a wonderful and gentle dog. He never would want me to be this upset. I'm going to try doing more. To do better. I want him to know he did a good job. During the worst times of my youth through abuse and neglect he was the light I clung to. The last rope I held on for dear life. Shade made sure I safely made it to a place where he knew I could be happy. Where I could thrive and be myself. He made damn sure I was well taken care of by Candy, Ollie, and Prov .... Gosh I miss him so much it physically hurts me to type all this.
Knowing all this, I know he'd be so very proud of me for making it through.
Because of all this, Prov and I actually have decided to adopt a young dog from the shelter and have them trained with be to be a stability and support animal, in all the ways that Shade had naturally picked up doing. I never trained a support animal before, so 2017 is going to be quite an adventure for that. I will love this new dog so much, but I won't ever forget you Shade.
2017 I am going to draw more. I am going to work on more characters I own. I am going to adopt/make new characters. I am going to write. I am going to rp. I am going to do so much more with the pillowing pile and lintlings.
I am going to be happy.
I hope you all have a wonderful time reflecting and growing. I can't wait to see what we all have in store for 2017.
I thought 2015 was a dramatically hard year for me. Shade's passing, being alienated from communities I loved, losing some of my best friends, and to top it off baseless harassment? It honestly was a horrific note to end the year on. I was terrified to start 2016. I didn't think I could honestly go on living at that point. I spent the next few months in a state of like... living paralysis. I functioned at the bare minimum each day just to get it over with. I just didn't want to be alive any more. Six months of that nonsense and Prov and I decided to try and seek out further treatments for me due to the fact I'd begun to reflect to self harm and entertaining thoughts of it again. It took another few months but finally we managed to get a doctor to see me and help us out. There was a bit of trial and error, but overall it seems to be going well.
This was my first year without my beloved Shade. I miss him every single day. Some days more than most. My heart breaks just imagining the fact that it's been past a whole year now that he's been gone.... But he was such a wonderful and gentle dog. He never would want me to be this upset. I'm going to try doing more. To do better. I want him to know he did a good job. During the worst times of my youth through abuse and neglect he was the light I clung to. The last rope I held on for dear life. Shade made sure I safely made it to a place where he knew I could be happy. Where I could thrive and be myself. He made damn sure I was well taken care of by Candy, Ollie, and Prov .... Gosh I miss him so much it physically hurts me to type all this.
Knowing all this, I know he'd be so very proud of me for making it through.
Because of all this, Prov and I actually have decided to adopt a young dog from the shelter and have them trained with be to be a stability and support animal, in all the ways that Shade had naturally picked up doing. I never trained a support animal before, so 2017 is going to be quite an adventure for that. I will love this new dog so much, but I won't ever forget you Shade.
2017 I am going to draw more. I am going to work on more characters I own. I am going to adopt/make new characters. I am going to write. I am going to rp. I am going to do so much more with the pillowing pile and lintlings.
I am going to be happy.
I hope you all have a wonderful time reflecting and growing. I can't wait to see what we all have in store for 2017.
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