It's so fucking crazy to think that THIS COMMENT on my "how emo am i?" journal hooked me to you.

It's insane to think that you just happened to show up at such a perfect moment.

Over a year you have been watching me on here and i just some how never truly seemed to notice. But, how?

You showed up when i needed someone. A shoulder to cry onto and someone to hold me after being torn apart piece by piece. Someone to show me that there was a heaven outside of that hell and you were that someone.

I don't know how it happened.

I still can't believe you are here, and that you are mine.

I have had dreams about you since i was 14 years old. Wanting you to be real and come to me in my life.. and you did and i found out your name was Gage.

What a perfect and fit name for you. Unique too. something i would have never thought of, it was new.

We spoke through kik for 3 days. Crazy it was so short.

I did what i had to do and you were there. We were best friends and trusted eachother in a matter of hours, such a short time but it all fit perfectly together.

We Skyped, but we were both really shy. It was only voice for again, just a few days, but we still fell asleep on the call. It just felt right.

That Saturday you agreed to do video, you said you'd be even more shy and probably awkward, you weren't. You were perfect.

We talked forever and that was the night.. the night that everything just fit. Nobody asked eachother the words. but that night when we were heading to bed i messaged you. i told you i just had this huge urge to say 'i love you' and i had no idea why. You felt the same..

So from that night on we said I love you to eachother, still 'friends'

a few more days and then you started calling me babe and your mate. as I did you.

No questions towards the other were needed, it all worked as it was supposed to. We were meant to be and that was made clear and has been every since.

July 22nd of 2016, the day we met, and still the day i fell in love with you.

I will never forget that day, and you shall always carry my heart. <3
-Ryan Blake Neeley (December 19, 2016)