One of many auction commissions I won from  carnivaldog's auction to settle debt from a hospital bill, as beautifully executed by  Chival.

This is an alternate form I came up with, of a dear friend of mine..I'm sure she wouldn't mind at all, and if I catch her online again I will immediately inform her about it...It's been a little over a year since we broke up..April 6th...I must confess, my devotion to this woman was redirected towards FA in general after we parted ways back then, before briefly reminiscing around Christmas and solidifying our friendship.

That is to say, she was one of several major factors that made me decide to donate so much to so many....things became difficult, she was hacked and under much stress...I tried to aid her at every time I could, she accepted my aid only once, after her Dragonscale balance had been drained on Furcadia...

It was so odd, how much we had in common..worked the same retail store, both bookworms...struggling with algebra, gaming nerds...we both suffered great hardship, learning that we had each been diagnosed with permanent medical conditions recently...we were there to comfort each other, And I like to think we always will be..

She became annoyed with my generosity, I once tried to give her funds to buy a scanner, she had sketchbooks full of illustrations of ourselves...and one day she just broke it off..I told her I wouldn't bother her again, and when we did run into each other again in December, she responded to my brief greeting, and said she had missed me greatly. A person as kind and innocent as she was, didn't deserve to be harrassed by a hacker..

For some reason, this theme makes me think of her..perhaps towards the end, the music seems to bring about a sense of wonder, mystery as to why things played out as they did... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cl3zolyjW8 we were both Final Fantasy Fans...

The other major factors in my great contributions to the fandom, were my recent fasciination with Utilitarianism "The greatest happiness for the greatest amount of people"...or stated otherwise, "Minimizing harm for the greatest amount of people"..I had once offered her a large sum due to a riot breaking out in her town at the time..she refused, and I admire such self-reliance.

If she was going to reject my generosity, If I couldn't bring her happiness..time and time again, I found auctions and journals here where mere currency could relieve pain and bring joy, and that in turn has brought some more valued friends into my life.