Have any of you been placed on a pedestal by a significant other? It's no fun. I mean, sure. When it starts, it can stoke your ego, making you feel mighty, great, infallible. But the shine comes off. You know yourself; you know you're not the person this other person is trying to make you out to be. I KNOW I was flat that song. I KNOW I've drawn better. I KNOW I could REALLY use a stick of deodorant right now. And it can breed resentment. You can start to feel like that person doesn't really know you; that they're just buttering you up for...any number of reasons. Maybe they're just really nice. Maybe they're desperate and don't want to lose you, so they think they have to say / do anything to keep you. For whatever reason, it's toxic.

Zel tells me I'm pretty great sometimes. She really likes my art and is proud of me for my accomplishments. But her praise and love don't feel like a pedestal. It feels like a bar. I want to get better for her. I want to strive to be that person she sees, every day. And I know, that she knows, that if I were to ever get a big head over all this, she'd just beep my nose and tell me to go hit the shower.

But I swear to gawd if she beeps my nose at the altar THE WEDDING (omg 12 days) IS OFF

Cookie Butt v. Crinkle Butt. BUT WHICH IS WHICH?!