I certainly understand that feeling. I think a lot of people do.

yeah, I'm with you. XD

Right where i'm at right now honestly.

I hope you feel better soon. I happen to have Social Anxiety as well. And it's really bad too. Combined with my Turrets Syndrom and ADHD, my life is far from easy. So I kinda know how you feel.

life can be overwhelming, and keeping it bottled up leads to making it worse, its best to vent, even in an anonymous forum, please get the help you need, dont bottle it up, even if you dont tell us, at least stop torturing yourself in your own head

~sincerely everyone that cares about you

I still feel bad whenever I vent to you guys. I don't feel like it's fair for you to have to hear my problems.

but thats what we are here for, nothing kills a relationship (friendship is a relationship btw) faster than a lack of communication and opening up

I know, but that's my anxiety playing out again. I always feel like a burden whenever I share my problems. You all have problems, too, what's so special about mine that you guys would actually be interested to hear? That's what goes through my mind whenever I vent like I am now.

The fact that I grew up with a dad that reinforced these thoughts doesn't help, either (one time, I flat out told him I was considering suicide, and he just said that it's something I have to take up with God).

You all have problems, too, what's so special about mine that you guys would actually be interested to hear? That's what goes through my mind whenever I vent like I am now.

First and foremost, DON'T ever think that your problems aren't valid just because you think someone has it worse, let you in on a little secret everyone's problems matter, big or small, and its not fair to you and others to constantly compare yourself to others. Second, we aren't interested in hearing your problems like its some novella, we are interested in helping you, trust me it has nothing to do with people wanting to be intrusive on your life, its people who see a hurt person and wanting to help them, its an instinct. And third, I understand your anxiety, but that is something only you or a doctor can fix, and taking that first step is the hardest, but its worth it.

I'm not even entirely sure what to say now.

I just was really expecting to be in a completely different place in my life right now. If everything had gone to my original plan, I'd be in my junior year of college right now. Then, every time I try to make some other plan, something else comes along and swipes it away from me. This most recent time was devastating for me, this one really shattered my spirit.

This is a good start, and I am not gonna lecture you or give you "worldly advice" or even a bandaid solution, I would just like you to continue talking, err typing, type until you feel you have emptied yourself, heck make a journal about it with the comments locked if you want (or open if you wanna hear peoples advice opinions or how much they care about you), I am just glad you opened up finally, it does the mind good, even if it doesn't feel that way.

Don't feel bad; everyone needs to vent sometimes, and internet friends/followers/fans however you look at us, are good for that. I fell like most people here, myself included, just want you to feel better.

Days like those where all the thoughts come at once just stink. I really hope you start to feel better soon, though I know mental illness can't just be turned off. *hugs if you want them*

Prayin for yah hun

I love how you put into pictures/words stuff I can't explain....

Pandora! We all feel that way sometimes, and personally, I get the social anxiety bit. It can be really hard to just get started... I just forced myself to do it. The people around you where you work is what can make the job feel less awful.

The best you can do with your concerns about fulfilling your dreams, I find, is to not look at the dream as a whole, but determine the next step! (Note: I'm a little mad that I paid two hundred dollars to hear a professor tell me that... LOL).

There's lots of people that care about you. Just pick a name and message them. We're all sorta friends here. :)

Can I shoot you a note with some motivation/encouragement/reassurance/all around positivity? I thought I'd ask first; I don' wanna impose, but I just have this very strong "she sad, want her feel better!" impulse going on right now. :[