I wouldn't be able to let out all that you just did to the internet. I'm waaay to insecure and shy for that. XD But it's written really well, better than I would ever be able to write. =3

My friend Halie pointed out some typos, but thanks.

Hopefully I don't chicken out tomorrow when I read it for Memoir class.

what

HI CHEESE HOW ARE YOU

durp durp durp

I don't see why you didn't say that the forum was the VGCats forum.

Well, I wanted to be able to use Dalton's name without providing any ties to him, so yeah. That's it.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

i completely missed this comment

hahaha

yeah

I had embarresing momments myself...but yes..if it wasnt for breaking my fear of ppl with being social online and made some friends..I'd still be in my room being WAY to afraid to even go outside by myself and even ask questions or buy things on my own. So yay for haveing friends..even if we dont talk anymore...the memories are there


this story was interesting to read and also had some laughs..like the part with ur sisters or whatever haha..oh my god x . x


ED's true nature" ? what was Ed's true nature? D: curious curious

over all..was interesting to read .. glad your not how u are from back then ..meanin like. all.. " x__x god if i am this or that i should be dead,cuz i dont want ppl lookin down on me" .

good that u came over that dumb mind set fufu :P

idk.. over all good read

I'm glad you got over your old fears, Mikeyboy. I know it was certainly hard for me to write this, and I know it's gonna be difficult to read this out loud if I don't tweak some details ASAP, perhaps to make them less disturbing. :B

And I'm glad my talking about other elements in this whole thing made you curious. Don't worry, all these things I hinted at are going to get their own chapters later down the line. |D

Cougy's curiosity shall be satisfied in due time~

outloud? dont tell me this is a class project xD ..oh boi x:


yis i'll be curious for however long >:

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hahahahaha

I read it to the class, and Sharon got up, hugged me all teary eyed and said 'BEN, I LOVE YOU, YOU'RE THE MOST HONEST KID I KNOW. ; D;'

:3c

the edit..ooh gosh joy hehe aazzz.. like urself to say..i do talk alot about my past and all..sexualle stuff is there but not rlly to an extreme since i aint embarresed about it rlly..cept for the time my dad found out i was gay and this other time a yiff pic slipped in a pile of arts i printed out long ago..and my dad was like >__> "let me see what u spent money on" so I thought i put away all the yiff and all xD and just showed him the clean stuff so it doesnt look like im doin anything bad...(( this was before i got a pc and i was useing the library )) oh well... >: oh and other things too when i was a child..but i'll keep that too self ..I think i already said sumthin bout that though..idk x:

over all

story yes i liked..good one lil guy for a personal thang 6 A 6

There was actually an incident prior to this where my sister picked up my Zune one day, and found all the porn I had stashed on it (WHY I THOUGHT THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA IS BEYOND ME). So, I faithfully defended that someone put the porn on my Zune as a trolling escepade (saying 'Well I've pissed off so many furries in my time, OBVIOUSLY one of them put it on there).

And it like, seemed they believed it (i.e. why I didn't log out of my computer when I left the house)

But I guess not. :{

HEY THE LAST SENTENCE HAS INCORRECT GRAMMAR.
It would be him and I, you silly person, you.

Also, this is pretty cool of you to do. I don't remotely have the nads to stick up and confess anything to anyone, really. :<

I don't blame anyone for not being able to do this. The chances of ending up in a class full of worldly, understanding people is pretty incredibly low, and I'm lucky I ended up in it. I was unsure at first, but after Elena read her piece, I knew I was in safe hands. I practically shouted the whole thing too, I wouldn't be surprised if the freshman next door heard me.

Oh, and thanks, Em. :3

Dude . . . You. Are. THE. BOSS.

Seriously, if you had the balls to read this in it's entirety to your high school class . . . I worship you. I would die. I would drop dead and die. Seriously.

You're my hero.

Even if I wrote a memoir, it wouldn't even be as crazy as this, but I'd still be shaking in my boots having to read it to the class. Hell, I was shaking yesterday during my book report presentation. I'd faint reading this.

So kudos to you man. And you're a brilliant writer, especially for your age. A lot of the writers on this site (myself included) are just . . . I dunno. so it's nice to come across a decent writer.

You rock.

Wow, this is spreading to people I've never met before? Wicked.

Also, a lot of the writers on here just kinda shit stuff out so they have something to jack it to. At least the ones on here who try aren't that bad, arguably.

And yeah, I read it yesterday, got probably the best reaction I could have ever asked for.

Thank ya kindly, dudeasaurus. :3

Ha, well I was just browsing and I came across it. Pure chance. The title was interesting, the content was juicy, and the writing voice was entertaining.

And yeah, I have to agree with that. Either that or they know people on here that would read it. Nothing on here has really ever struck me as creative or out there. This was definitely out there, man. Way out there. Dare I say it: far out.

And no one was like, "wtf is furry? Isn't that an adjective? How can you be a furry?"

Lawl.

It probably helps that I put all sorts of retarded tags in it. Heckyeah.

And yeah, I figured no one would know what a furry is. S'why I put the paragraph in there explaining what they are. :B

Also, looking at this piece now, I think I'm going to go for a different narrative style when I actually write my memoir, as I highly doubt the style of brushing over several years of my life in relation to a single topic can sustain an entire book. I think what I'm going to do is go back to the beginning, and tell the story of every single interesting thing that happened, and put it all together to try and find a theme.

Ramblerambleramble, thanks broseph. I think I might wanna add you to an instant messenger or something. c:

Oh, lol. It's been at least a week or two since I read this, and I've read some stuff between then and now, so I kinda forgot, haha.

So you have to write an entire book, hm? Or are you just going the extra step? Sometimes your writing can tug you in a certain direction until if feels that it has truly and fully realized itself.

I, for one, could never write a book. I like writing, but I can never really commit to one idea long enough to flesh it out into something complete. I always start one story, get maybe a page or two, then start another, and so on. So it's admirable that you could undertake such a huge, well, undertaking, lol.

And yah, I could chat. Note me. But I'm usually only on on weekends, so . . . yah. c:

Just a week. The internet is truly marvelous for finding this sort of thing out. :3

I assume this is supposed to be a book, considering my teacher keeps referring to these assignments as chapters rather than pieces or stories. Also, I think it'd be cool to have an account of all the things in my life that have happened thus far. It'd certainly be therapeutic, no doubt. :B

I honestly prefer writing books, since I want to be that guy who writes a great American epic who becomes notorious for it and stuff. Obviously I'm not doing it for the fame, since the passion to create is much more stronger than that desire; but recognition for my work would certainly be decent.

Aiight, notin'~

I've always wanted to write an epic story, but I don't seem to have the right word choice or vocabulary for it. It seems I can only narrow a story down to the specific events of maybe a handful of characters in a single community, such as a town or city. To be able to create a story of grand and epic proportions would be . . . very satisfying, I would think. That would be something that, if I could bring myself to begin, I think I would fulfill.

I've been trying to find books that take place on an epic scale, to see the types of techniques the authors use, but I can't really find any that are written in the writing style that I'm used to. Or when I do, they're a little too impersonal, so far zoomed out that you don't get to intimately know the characters. So I guess it's something that every writer has trouble with.

Not sure if that's what you meant by the next great American epic, but it at least got me thinking about something.

Nah, you got it right.

I understand what you mean about the personal thing, too. What I was planning to do with my fiction novel (yes, I'm writing two books at once, SO HURDCURE) is to use three different narrative voices, two first person voices switching between the central characters, and another, third-person omnipotent voice that actually has a logical reason for being there (sorta). Hopefully by doing it like this, I can combat the whole issue of lacking a personal connection with the characters.

And yes, I think it would be incredibly satisfying. :3

Lol, it took me like a full minute to figure out what "HURDCURE" is. Sloooooooooooooow.

So what is your fiction novel about? I'm not gonna steal your idea or anything (well okay, I might), I'm just curious.

Speaking of alternating perspectives, there was this one book I read that did it interestingly. There were were multiple perspectives, but they were each told in a uniquely different way. One character, for example, only communicated through journals and logs, with the events revolving entirely around her; you could hear the narcissism in her voice. Another character used no quotation marks; speech was as ubiquitous in the text as anything else. (For example: I am so hurdcure, he said.) Another character had little dialogue, and told the story from a second person perspective. A few were told in first person, an of course the voice could be heard in all.

(The book was Edenborn by Nick Sagan, if you were interested. Although you'd have to read Idlewild first to get it, since it's part of a trilogy. Everfree is the last book in the series, but like most series, only the original is any good.)

Anyways, there's just another technique you might have wanted to explore. =]

That sounds pretty neat. :3

Anyway, I'm starting to get exhausted, so I'll hit you up some other time.

Peace from the east, Motha Teres.

Wait, did you actually read it :V

Yes, I know, late reply is late, but I was bored so you'll have to bear with me. :U

I gotta tell you one thing dude, you certainly have a lot of guts for the things that have happened to you. I mean, really, to not crack down underneath all that kind of pressure takes one hell of a thick skull.

If anything has interested me about this it's the fact of looking through your mind about what you saw and thought of everything. It also makes for great proof that people have their own kinks, and that, for anyone, should be comforting to know that they're not alone in this.

Very well written and interesting read. I hope you don't mind that I fave this. The thoughts of other people are interesting to me.

Nah, I don't mind at all. I mean, you're the third person to do so. :B

I dunno, I don't really like to think of myself as 'having guts' when I decide to do potentially dumb things like revealing a bunch of shit to a high school class. There's something that seems inaccurately masculine about that phrase. If anything, it's more like shutting down my brain, acting, and hoping for the best outcome, and knowing that the worst will at least be interesting. :V

But thanks, I appreciate the kind words, and honestly, I'm surprised people keep stumbling upon this. Using the smallest excuses to put in risque tags sure does pay off, eh?

I like to think of having guts as being able to do anything without fear of whatever may occur. You did those things, and albeit they weren't smart, you still stuck to your skin. That sounds pretty gutsy to me.

And no, I found it while looking for people to spy on in this site. It's so boring just looking at my own page.

Yours is a story not unlike that of many. I could say that insecurities are a surplus in this group of people, but that would be disingenuous by mere intention- everyone has insecurities like this. As a matter of fact, furries, I find, represent the exact proportion of people with similar problems who are unconnected to the fandom... it's just that there's some special lens over us that magnifies the focus so much.

You're downplaying yourself for obvious reasons, but good on you for honesty.

I kind of figured my story here wasn't terribly unique, given the array of colorful characters on this site. As for the special lens thing, I guess it pretty much has to do with how society feels the need to single out a group of people for ridicule, so they can feel better about themselves. Although I suppose it's more of an e-society in this case, since I'm pretty sure you'd be able to find a good number of people that have no idea what the term 'furry' means (you know, minus the people in the class I read to :P).

Thanks, mangalang. I'm glad this is spreading around fairly far. :3

Unique? Maybe not so much, but it is significant. The fact that you did this affects the people who read it directly, and then those people talk to others with this slightly altered worldview, and so on. Poignant thoughts are viral in nature, so this does a lot of good even by itself. I, as well, hope to spread this around.

Well, I appreciate the encouraging words. If you did spread this around, that'd be super fantastic, and I'd appreciate it muchly. It's cool if you don't though. :3

Wow, haha, I was just reading a little and suddenly I got into the whole thing. I didn't read every paragraph, but most, I think.
It's cool that you read this out to others, that must'a been different, and taken a while.
It's fun to hear different people's reactions and how they came across the same things in life.
Well now I also know you're a guy, despite the icon.
It was fun to read. (:

B-but... my character is a guy too. :{
And I'm glad you enjoyed reading. You should spread this around; I love it when people just stumble upon it and leave comments. :3

inspiring

Ahahahah

Hello to you too. V:

Bravo hon

What a story, man. I'm impressed you had the balls to read this to a class. Major kudos. :3

Aww, thank you. It's nice to know that people are still finding this four months after I uploaded it. :3

I'm curious, how did you nearly get thrown in jail for your ED exploits?

First off, let me just say that when I was with ED several years ago, I made absolutely no effort at all to hide who I was. This was because the idea of someone actually trying to track me down over an article I had written about someone filled me utter glee and delight, and I was honestly curious to see what would come of such a thing, since I was confident that I was safe from the law. All the time I would see ED writers getting threatened with a lawsuit, only to be comforted by the actual lawyers in their ranks that they were protected.

Now, I'm still not clear as to whether this is true or not, since no charges ever actually materialized against me, but my parents swore up and down that by just writing hate speech in the article (the person in question was white, but the words "nigger" and "jew" were in there like every few sentences), I could be sent to jail. In fact, my parents claimed that they were the ones who made that sort of thing illegal, tearfully yelling at me about how they were the ones standing before Congress and Senate and the like, trying to get such laws passed. The family of the article subject were pretty much just looking for anything they could get me for; however, I don't blame them for doing this.

Although coincidentally enough, I had resolved on the very same day this became an issue not to worry myself with such silly websites as Encyclopedia Dramatica, I had failed to consider how I might have affected some of the people I had written articles about. And believe me, the article which I had written had very little to do with the internet; in fact, just like the family when they were pressing charges, I was looking for the feeblest of straws to grasp onto in the internet-relevancy department, because I thought it would be interesting to write an article involving someone that I had gone to Kindergarten with.

The problem simply was this: I was an impressionable child, an impressionable child who had never truly been accepted by a group of people before. I had been lead to believe that, if I had the balls to take matters further than I possibly could, then I would be seen as some sort of messiah amongst the body of those fools. It was about five months after I had written the article and forgotten about it entirely that one of the people in question came up to my door with the article all printed out (and my userpage, featuring a picture of me getting bukakked by a bunch of dicks, yay smart profile design choices).

The reason no charges ever really materialized was because the family in question was satisfied by an apology I made directly to one of the people lambasted in the article, while being heckled by the rest of her family. Me and my family also agreed to help them with other matters, but for some reason, this never materialized; I figure it was just because they wanted to forget about the matter entirely. Unfortunately, the article still stands up there today, but because this story was never relayed back to anyone at Encyclopedia Dramatica, the article faded into obscurity, and off any Google search page where someone may have stumbled upon it; and honestly, I'm grateful it worked out as such.

Now, as for the unanswered question: Can simply throwing racial slurs around on the internet get someone thrown in jail, even if used in a satirical and non-serious way? Although I do believe what I wrote extended into the region of "over the top", I still can't help but feel they were saying things in a moment of emotion. I guess it's not really important that I know whether or not this is true, but it'd be interesting if somebody could find out.

Alright, enough words for you. Thanks for reading the whole thing. :3

Cajones

You have them

Respect bro, I'd find just writing this stuff down in private and never disclosing any of it in a public forum difficult enough, but to do what you did? Dammit boy.

Oh and from a technical point of view, this is tight as fuck on structure and its a damn fascinating read too. WELL PLAYED BROTHA

AAAAAAAAA thank you ;;

Haha I'm running out of things to say in response to these comments ; 3;

You've said plenty already I guess, still trips me out you read this to your class

Well, it came after a graphic piece about this chick's childhood experiences with lesbianism, so it wasn't necessarily courage on my part. Rather, it was me wanting not to look like a pussy. But still, thanks.

Haha. You seem to have discovered the ass end of the fandom first. Pretty much the opposite of how I did. :x

TURN BACK NOW DREAD

TURN AWAY FROM THE MURRY PURRIES AND PORNOGRAPHY

; ~;

ALL I SEE ARE RAINBOWS AND BUTTERFLIES. WHAT COULD POSSIBLY GO WRONG?

I must say you have BIG ASS BALLS to tell this stuff. Some of us are still trying to find ours.

I was gonna say something like "WELL YOU GOT 'EM, YOU JUST GOTTA LEARN HOW TO FLAUNT EM", but it only sounded good in my head for a total of about two seconds :(

But yeah, anyone's capable of having courage, just find it within yourself and pull that fucker up man.

Oh, and thanks for reading this. :>

Awww... thanks for the advice. ^^ I know on Myspace they would have just ripped on me and my comment. LOL

didnt read this; thats a lot of words man

Single tear

Double tear

Triple tear!

OVER TEAR.

SADNESS TEAR?

TEARTACULAR.

TEARTROCITY

TEARAMANJARO

I shall respond to this revealing after I stop crying. damn these tears are making it hard to type.

Hahahahaah

I didn't think it was cry worthy, but hey, thanks.

Ok now time for a reply for this: fuck I am to lazy. I usually analize the entire thing and I complement you on the things you did well blah blah blah then point out those ever so tiny and miniscule errors for the sake of improvement blahde blah blah blah and in conclusion: you did well. You have ball, you know how to use them. I am proud of you as if you were my son.

Oh, well

Thanks I suppose

hahaha idk.

Oh god.

This is incredibly well written; I had stumbled upon your userpage on FA a while back but I didn't read this. I regret that, but now I'm really happy I did.

As many others have said, truly inspiring.

Oh hey, I've seen your icon around before. How'd you find this page exactly, 'cause I wouldn't be surprised if you're friends with somebody else I know. V:

Hmm... I think it was on someone's page, a few weeks back, and I joined the IRC channel for a few minutes.

Hmm.

Oh. You should come back, it's probably gotten quite a bit more bigger and awesomer than last time. It's my preferred method of communication these days, since having a huge bunch of mutual e-friends is better than talking to people one-on-one through instant messengers all the time. :>

...you know, this is actually a really touching history. Seriously.

Haha, thank you. Just wondering, how'd you find this?

Via-via-via. I think it went down something like this; I was checking out some artist, I saw your icon and clicked it, and then stumbled across this. That's how I find most hidden pearls.

But yeah, your story and mine have some things in common. To many people, I'm still just a non-sexually deviated, straight guy. Shit, if only they knew. I don't think the majority of the people understands, they just see it as something weird and perverted.

I'm still kind of a closet fur, and a lot of people don't know I find both sexes attractive. In my line of work man love is not exactly widely accepted and generally frowned upon. I even had a colleague who believed homo- and bisexuality were choices, not just the way people are.

Sometimes humanity's ignorance cracks me up, but at other times, I could just burst out in tears because of it.

Haha, well that's pretty neat. Apparently, I need to churn out something in the next two days for this same class (it's continued from last year), so except something new along these lines fairly soon. I hope everything works out for you, and that you enjoy whatever else I manage to stir up. :>

A very interesting insight of Human emotion and mental structuring.

I like how of all times to check if this ever got any new comments, I check on the same day it actually did. Glad you liked it, I guess!

I did enjoy it, you're a very brave person.

I think when I read it, I just shut my brain off entirely. There's no other explanation for how I read this with such a straight face. I appreciate the kind words though. c: