Raped and beaten and left for shame,
With no one but myself to blame.
For it was my choice that got me there,
Why did I do it, how could I dare?
Trying to leave him and runaway,
I knew it would end up this way.
It didn’t matter how hard I fought,
I could not quite those thoughts
As I laid bleeding onto the street,
When I could barely hear my own heartbeat.
My head was spinning, and I could not see,
My chest was hurting, as I tried to breathe.
Though pain in my body I did feel,
I wondered if all of it was real…
An ache in my pelvis so deep and throbbing
That at once I began hysterically sobbing
As within me grew a frightening scare
To know from me, my cub he did tear.
Bruises and wounds with time did heal,
But it still couldn’t make what happened unreal.
For years and years I denied
Tried to find solace, and tried to hide,
But no matter how fast or far I ran,
Each night my nightmares anew began.
Each day again to myself I lied,
And only wish back then I had died.
There was no reason for me to live,
For I had no life or love to give.
It was all taken and stolen from me,
An empty body was all left of me.