This one originally was gonna come about from a drawing I saw on Fur Affinity of Gideon Grey where he wasn't as pudgy as he was in the movie wearing a tank top and kind of looked a little more manly but still came off cute to me from the body language in the drawing. I sketched two versions, one mimicking the other artist style and this one in my own style.
After reading a few comics about the wolf cops from Zootopia, I saw some things that remind me how I handle my current job that I connected with. I'm mostly dom at work. Being the fastest and strongest here, I can push for a more Alpha position in things but seem to enjoy purposely leaning to a more Beta type position. I can be a bit of a sub around The Boss. If you got a good boss, I think that's the way it should be. I think we've finally established our rules and boundaries for both of our mutual benefits. Around the customers, I become knowledgeable and very helpful. I become the store person I would wish to run into every time I go into a store.
In the last few weeks some blocked memories surfaced plus I had some talks with some close friends that had the patience to listen. I learned a lot of things about myself, about who I am, and why I did a lot of things the way I did over the years trying hard to project a constant dominant aura about me. I also had an interest in learning fight stuff. Might have been a defense mechanism for all my fears I never knew I had and still have. I don't know. Now, I don't have a consistency, switching from assertive around the other workers and in certain environments and situations to docile depending on who I'm talking to or where I'm at. Sometimes, trying to come off as non threatening. If anyone has seen what I look like, I guess as non threatening as I can be.
As seen from some of my recent postings, I've been in a bit of a reflective mood lately. Sorry about all the rambling. If interested, I'm open for questions.