(taken from my tumblr... too exhausted to do much other than copy/paste)
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so on my final day of trying to move away from an abusive situation, i rented a uhaul. i went to my old home at night to load up my desk (the only thing large enough that i didn’t transport it before in my own car) under the cover of darkness to avoid my father (the abuser).
got it moved, felt so elated and happy, ready to start a new fucking life away from him, and… when i returned the truck, not 6 hours later, i found this. power steering is completely out. it is not drivable.

insurance is saying i have to pay a thousand dollar deductible before they pay for damages, despite the fact that i was literally not even near the vehicle when someone else hit it in a parking lot and drove off. i don’t have it. i literally just had to beg the internet for donations to get me away from my father who verbally threatened to beat my ass and took a swing at me over a disagreement about my support bernie sanders, of all things.

i am 5 feet tall and 105 lbs soaking wet. i’m a severely mentally ill nonbinary trans man, but he doesn’t know it, because he’s a terrible, violent, transphobic person who doesn’t believe in mental illness. and i was almost free of him. now this.

to make matters worse the car and insurance are in his name, despite the car being mine and him never using it in over 6 years. it was just another way for him to have control over me. i was hoping to work something out and either keep this car and transfer ownership and responsibilities to my own name or try to find a cheap one to lease… but now? i don’t know what to do.

i just asked for - and got - help from the internet to escape, and the universe drops this on me. i’m so defeated and numb. i feel like a failure. i feel like i wasted everyone’s money because i fear this is going to make it so that i can’t afford this home on my own anymore.
i’m not even sure i’m asking for help so much as sitting here info-dumping because i am panicking and it’s all i can think to do. i’m sorry, everyone. i don’t know what else to say.