I wanted to upload this picture to kind of portrait myself to remember that even when my life seems bleak, I can still do good. This was last night. I have fallen ill and got this insane fever. I kind of collapsed on the couch at Jasper's place and barely managed to stay awake. It was then that his cat, Renji, who had just been neutered that day and was still dizzy and tired from surgery, crawled onto my lap and made himself comfy in my arms. His purring slowly faded as he drifted off to sleep and I just sat there, crying about how this little animal sought the comfort of my burning body because he wasn't feeling so well, and at the same time comforted me in that way.

I seriously hate my life right now with all these problems I am going through. I ate so much due to stress that my bloodpressure skyrocketed and I am now officially obese. The community services here are putting me to work and I am just not ready for it. But I let this picture be a reminder to myself that there's still little sparks of hope in this world.