Clinical depression sucks so much, and can sneak up on you in the most awful way. Today was one of those days. All I managed for about 10 hours was to wake up, cry, blankly watch Netflix, force myself to eat and then pass back out. Promised myself that I wouldn’t fall back into self harm, and so far, I haven’t.

Tattoo idea that’s been floating around in my head for a while, and decided to try and get some of it out today so I can at least feel like I accomplished something worthwhile.

Deer are so symbolic in my life, and I’ve always seen them as my protectors. They show up around me when I need them most, and have always felt a connection. The lotus flower is my connection to the Buddhist religion, which I started practicing a few years ago.

I really hope I can finish this soon, and please, please don’t use this for your own tattoo just yet. I am all for people getting my art done on them, but would like to at least finish it first and be able to get it myself.