so ummm... yeah... I have had a crush on my bestfriend for like ever... since high school.... like before I started dating my ex... and ummm, my best friend is a girl... and the only girl I'd ever think of getting into a romantic refashion ship with. but I'm abit scared of saying anything or speaking up... every time I got the courage I'd chicken out and never do it thinking my family would shun me... she's been there through thick and thin even when I was depressed and suicidal... she has always been my light and I'm terrified to tell her not that it would ruin or friend ship because we bros, but mostly of what she'll say... she deserves much better than me... I'm just some fast food working 21 year old trying to get back to school and she's on her way to be a doctor... this is something I have had a hard time with for a long long time like sometimes she'll type love you on skype messenger and that's when I'm like what type women, please tell me~~~ like friends love or romantic. I know she goes both ways at least she did the last time I asked but uhhh... its all confusing and meh... she really doesn't look on my FA unless I send a link to something to show her but yeah... at least I don't think so. cuz if she does I'm going to get my answer tomorrow then. o^o I'm so nurvise and panicky to these kind of thinks.... I wish I could just be like I love you romantically!!! and yeah, did I mention I'm also super awkward when I ask people out. OWO'' so yeah, I'm leaving this here now and stopping my rambling.