i'm just tearing up at this! I came to the dutch angel dragon community not even 2 months ago ?? And things have spiraled out of control with my love life, it was the reason i came to the community once i had a feeling i was losing the love of my life, I knew that the dutch angel dragons would be a good home to pull me up from the darkness because at the time i was welcomed with open wing into the community and i brought to it the love i feel for all that accepted me here. This is just another example of the amazing people here. I hope to help others as you guys help aid me in my time of need. We're all here for eachother, no matter how tight nit people think the community is, i think it is an amazing place if thats what you make it out to be. A place to be happy and to flourish with all of the people in it wanting you to grow. Thank you so much for this, i'm at a loss for words at how much this helps. Even if im dealing with emotional turmoil, it really is a sweet gesture and i adore this to death, thank you so much for doing this, you didn't have to but did anyway. When i came here i wanted everyone to smile and everyone to grow and strive around me, its all i wanted. For everyone to see happiness and to be happy, thats what makes me happy, is seeing others being happy and letting me be in their life and able to see them fly free and happy.

There is much darkness in my life, and thats why i relied so much on my ex to help be my light. He was my light for the longest time, and we both messed up in the relationship, but it seems like, he doesnt realize the sacrifices and how much of my soul i put into him and how much i really need him in my life. But he says it will be miserable, and well. If a stranger that doesnt have to face all the pain that i did, gets to get what i didnt have and wanted with him. I can only accept it and smile and support him in it... Even though it sucks... and will be hard to get over...

Things are starting to look up, i found someone thats willing to do my suit for aztec, which means ill prolly be drawing again here shortly to make the funds to get him completed, as well as a plushie i commissioned not long ago that is going to be worked on, So things are starting to look up. slowly but surely ill rise from the ashes of my broken body and be reborn into a much stronger person, I know i am strong now as i am, Even through my flaws i have many that support me and many that i do support vice versa. But i want you to know im also here, im a note away if you ever need me in any way. I love helping others and seeing them smile, bringing someones day up is what i live for, and since my ex isnt in my life, I want to find a person like him, to make smile, to be able to stay by my side, wether i am in bdsm or not, i want someone to accept me for me and not worry about sex and whos on top or bottom, someone to genuinely love me and tell me to my face they love me and mean it. I am glad i got out of wasting my time on someone who doesnt appreciate me, one day ill find that person , but for now ill focus on making my life better, along with others, I hope i can fly with you all with open and free wings, together as a family.

I'm glad you like it, and sadly not too long ago I was dealing with loosing my ex. We were together for 5 years and he treated me like an angle at least I thought untill I broke up with him. I was basically a sex toy to him and thats really all i was good for in his eyes. He was very controling and even forbid me to draw or even do the stuff i'm doing now saying no one would like it anyway. When I left I was a shaddered mess not knowing what to do with my self after serving him for so long. I got to reconect to my friends and they all helped me realise that it wasnt a healthy relashionship and that I shouldn't be have as someones little sex toy. I know that your break up wasn't like mine but I just wanted to show that sometimes the people you think at one time were absoulty perfect, my not have been after the fact. I'm glad things are starting to look up and I can't wait to see astec as a suit and plushie he's super adorable~ thank you again for liking my drawing, I stayed up way too late drawing it but I knew it needed to be drawn.

Sounds like my story almost but minus the sex toy part. For a long time he refused to let me do things or yelled at me for doing them like playing games or developing on imvu cause i used to develope and make furries on there until i got tired of him yelling at me for it, it lost its fun when someone keeps telling you to stop doing it. I cant believe someone would do that to you, and im glad your friends reconnected with you, sadly i cant get friends that i lost since i blocked them so many times for this person i loved so dearly but, once things settle down ill forget him and he will be nothing but a bad memory, i dont want it to be that way but it seems like it will at this point in my life. I still cant believe hes leaving me , he promised me he would never leave me, and i guess, its the last promise he has to break between us. For years i wanted him to be happy and lead a good life, I'm glad he can finally do that and i hold no grudge against him, I just wish things were different, I can only accept how things are and move on with my own life, though i have that terrible habit of going to his profile all the time, one day ill stop, which , i hope is soon because it pains me right now to even look but. Your right about things getting better, they will , if i strive for it my life will be amazing. Because i am strong and an amazing person, I will make my life what i want it to be. I dont want anymore negativity like me and my ex had, its funny, ever since he left me life the negative has disapeared from it, So i guess its a good thing we are taking seperate paths. Somehow we are negative for eachother... I wish that wasnt the case because i love being by his side but,cant argue with fate.

I can't wait for my customs to be finished, then ill start saving to go to con to see everyone, And hopefully be able to buy more art for my babes as well as others. Theres alot of changes that are going to happen to my life. Now that i realize where my faults lie i can fix them and be that person i always wanted to be.

I adore this piece, it was well worth the staying up and drawing it, and i want you to know i appreciate it.

thank you I'm glad you like it~ ^_^ and I hope for your days to keep getting brighter