So tonight was a bad night. I did something that hurt me, my mate and my best friend.
some things were fixed, but one still is not.
I'm asked all the time to be perfect and never stray from the path and always do right. And I have to watch everyone around me mess up and I have to except it. It's not fair. I can mess up to and stray from the path. I have been under a lot of stress lately and have hardly told anyone. Hardly my own mate knows, up until now. I'm so hurt right now from what happened tonight and the pass things I'm going through. what happened tonight was done in a way that could of been done in a much better way. And shit wouldn't be as bad or as big as they were made out to be.

So from now on. NO ONE will get any info from me anymore. No one will know whats going on in my life and what I do. I'm tired of being treated like the bad guy and how I can never mess up.
I was already in my old dark world, and was working to get back out. For the sake of my loved ones and friends I hold dear. But tonight's actions just made it worst and now I'm further in then I was.
If what was suppose to happen tonight make things worst, then I say it worked.