I feel the life around me losing it's shape and form. The character of friend and family revealing themselves and their disregards. A great silence is befalling myself and home is lost externally. The words of others around me that find I preach, that I go on and speak far too much, that my work is creepy and melodramatic..are getting louder....and I feel...the greatest determination I will know in my life so far.

Every moment, every frustration, every external input of disbelief and loss of support will be my greatest teacher yet. We make our realities when all has come down to the very fine wire. All our comforts, all our strength, all our belief and faith. I am going to make this a good one. We can all prove together that apathy no matter how aggressive, that despair no matter how deep, that anger no matter how ignited...can be no more powerful than hope and action. Here is to you all fine souls that send your love and know it's coming back to you.

Your words are there and our triumph will be above Apathy. No one can take away that.