Why do I even bother? why do I have these feelings? why can't I just move on?
I don't want to like you, you hurt me...and I can't trust you, so why do I like you still? I could just hate you and leave you and be over with it, but no.
Sometime I hope we would have gone different ways and never talk to eachother but what has been done is done.
I'm so sick and tired of crying and feeling like shit..
and I still think you have some sick and twisted plan to break me again...I sure hope you stop before it's too late..I don't want to fall in to pieces again, I'm not even fixed yet..
I know I wasn't perfect either and I hurt you but the damage you have done to me can not compare.
I'm so done.
I just want to sleep forever.
Wake me up when this all is over.

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sorry for venting but I had to get this out of my chest ^^"