I just really want my girlfriend to just fight
I feel so lost right now
VERY VENTY WRITING RIGHT HERE
There are times where I wonder if she still honestly loves me
like how the fuck am i suppose to know this when you take a moment to say i love you back
when you say you want time apart
I just cant handle your inability to decide whether you want to date me or not. You talk about how you dont know who you fucking are. I don't understand how you are so fucking confused. I wish you wouldn't let your mom decide who you are. I wish you wouldn't get your family choose who you are. Just be yourself. If you are not my girlfriend than don't be. Don't tread on the boarder unsure of yourself, please. I don't need this.
I dont even want to see you tomorrow after what you texted me tonight. Youre getting drunk with your best friend -- you said you were going to talk to me when you were sober. Just fuck you. Its not fair. You get pissed when I say that I am going out to drink with my friends, but I'm suppose to be ok with it when you do it. You fucking hypocrite.
Sometimes the stress of having you as a significant other gets to be so much. I try not to let your depression get to me-- but nights like this its so fucking hard.
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I feel like writing more since it's still swirling around in my mind
When I say your depression is getting good to me -- I mean my girlfriend has depression. It's not clinically diagnosed, but she would cry nearly daily about some small problem. It's really strenuous on our relationship when she is down 90% of the time were together.
I fucking bought a ring for you. Were promised to each other. I am always trying to give you as much as I possibly could but I feel like you don't appreciate it. I don't care that our phone calls are silent, but you have a problem with it. There is nothing wrong with silence. I personally see it as each participant is there ready to respond. If we put down our phones who knows how long it would take for me to answer
You talk about how our conversations consist of you complaining and I just grunt an ok -- this is true. What am I suppose to do when the only thing you want to have a lengthy conversation about is how much you hate your work. You wonder why I get so irritated when we talk on the phone. This shit is annoying to always hear the negative. Wtf if wrong with you. When I talk about things you too scoff them off. Don't expect me to care for our repeated conversations when you don't even care to have an opinion on my new ones. Wtf. I'm telling you how my day went and you ignore me. Thank you.
No need to comment about support or anything. I just wanted to write this out... I feel so much better.
I feel so lost right now
VERY VENTY WRITING RIGHT HERE
There are times where I wonder if she still honestly loves me
like how the fuck am i suppose to know this when you take a moment to say i love you back
when you say you want time apart
I just cant handle your inability to decide whether you want to date me or not. You talk about how you dont know who you fucking are. I don't understand how you are so fucking confused. I wish you wouldn't let your mom decide who you are. I wish you wouldn't get your family choose who you are. Just be yourself. If you are not my girlfriend than don't be. Don't tread on the boarder unsure of yourself, please. I don't need this.
I dont even want to see you tomorrow after what you texted me tonight. Youre getting drunk with your best friend -- you said you were going to talk to me when you were sober. Just fuck you. Its not fair. You get pissed when I say that I am going out to drink with my friends, but I'm suppose to be ok with it when you do it. You fucking hypocrite.
Sometimes the stress of having you as a significant other gets to be so much. I try not to let your depression get to me-- but nights like this its so fucking hard.
Edit:
I feel like writing more since it's still swirling around in my mind
When I say your depression is getting good to me -- I mean my girlfriend has depression. It's not clinically diagnosed, but she would cry nearly daily about some small problem. It's really strenuous on our relationship when she is down 90% of the time were together.
I fucking bought a ring for you. Were promised to each other. I am always trying to give you as much as I possibly could but I feel like you don't appreciate it. I don't care that our phone calls are silent, but you have a problem with it. There is nothing wrong with silence. I personally see it as each participant is there ready to respond. If we put down our phones who knows how long it would take for me to answer
You talk about how our conversations consist of you complaining and I just grunt an ok -- this is true. What am I suppose to do when the only thing you want to have a lengthy conversation about is how much you hate your work. You wonder why I get so irritated when we talk on the phone. This shit is annoying to always hear the negative. Wtf if wrong with you. When I talk about things you too scoff them off. Don't expect me to care for our repeated conversations when you don't even care to have an opinion on my new ones. Wtf. I'm telling you how my day went and you ignore me. Thank you.
No need to comment about support or anything. I just wanted to write this out... I feel so much better.
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I can't even begin to say I know anything about you, your girlfriend, or your relationship...but from what I see here, it's not healthy. I can't imagine it being healthy with any of these things going on no matter what else is happening. I've generally noticed if someone is asking for "time apart", they want to leave but feel trapped or obligated to be with their SO, so they use some invented term like "time apart." A real, healthy relationship is supposed to be a part of your life and a part of you - not an obstacle or a trap or an obligation. People who say they need time apart because they're too busy, or they're unsure about themselves or their life's direction, generally aren't invested in a relationship as seriously as they should be. If you're going through things, while in a relationship, your other half is supposed to help you through that, not be an obstacle or an issue to deal with on top of it - and if they are, it's really just not healthy for either person.
I don't mean to sound intrusive, prying, or assuming - I just hope my two cents may help you in some way or another. Sometimes all someone needs is a completely outside perspective. Feel free to just..hide my comment if it's not welcome.
I don't mean to sound intrusive, prying, or assuming - I just hope my two cents may help you in some way or another. Sometimes all someone needs is a completely outside perspective. Feel free to just..hide my comment if it's not welcome.
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