kinda vent
summer and no job and many friends being busy is giving me a lot of time to overthink stuff and start stressing about bullshit things
the worst part is that i dont have anyone to talk to about these things
because i feel like a huge burden to everyone

so every day i have this heavy feeling in my stomach and empty feel in my chest

i want to be with my friends, but it feels like theyre all busy and that they dont want my company. which probably isnt true, but i feel so annoying and burden like if i would try asking my friends to hang out w me.....and i think im the happiest when im with my friends so...........some days i just feel like going back to sleep because whats else there to do... better just sleep it off than overthinking and feeling all shitty trough the whole day

i seriously dont know what to do. this summer is beginning to look really sucky and awful. its been raining almost every day anyway... or if not raining then being cloudy af.

im really sorry for the rant, but i just had to let even just a teeny tiny bit of my feelings out....