I'm really sick of being beaten for trying to help, but even when I don't help I still get beaten down!

This drawing is more or less a vent. Something I hope my long time best friend  DarastrixTheDragon will look at and get over this.
What happened you say?

I'm not going to say anything here out of respect. I'll just I was worried about her once again and didn't want to put up with it and she yelled at me.
She thinks her presence on Earth is meaningless, kinda like me. But unlike me, she HAS people who care deeply for her and I wish she fucking saw that already. I have been there for her countless times as she has been there for me. I don't do that for fun, I do that because she is my friend and I care deeply for her. But it doesn't matter, no matter how many times I tell her she's beautiful she will eventually deny it and go back to the darkness. I can totally relate, but she is in every way better than me and deserves to be loved and cared for.

Cookie, I know you'll see and read this someday, I hope you get over this and feel better. No, I don't know what your going through, but I do know we are all here for you. When are you going to open your eyes and see that? Nothing I say will change your mind and I'm hurt that I can't help you.
Even if you block me I will still be here for you and care about you. Please don't push me away...
But if that's your final choice, then I wish for the best and I hope someone out there is helping you. Maybe he/she is doing a better job than me, maybe in the end I never helped you at all....
Just promise me you won't do anything rash. Be brave and keep living. The world hurts but we got your back. There or far it doesn't matter where your friends are. We are always with you.
Good luck my friend....
Goodbye...