I've always wanted to do a Marina and the Diamonds cover, because when I was a bit younger than I am now, I discovered her because of a friend. Now, that friend is no longer a friend, sadly, but I occasionally listen to her songs because it's comforting to remember what it was like when I had friends like that one around me in person when I needed them.

I spent quite awhile trying to pick a song from both of her albums that best represents who I am, and there are a ton of good songs in there. Her lyrics are breathtaking and self-written, and they flow better than a lot of songs I've listened to in recent years. I was thinking either this song, or rootless, but I sang rootless years back and although its an awful cover compared to my standards now, it's only accurate to who I was back then.

Living Dead is a song that I like to think is about that point in your life where you feel like there's nothing, when the color has all vanished and life can sometimes even feel hopeless. Although it nearly perfectly labels my own concerns about my life, I feel like it's also a humble admission of being young, and inexperienced with the world. Which I very much am. The line "I haven't lived my life I, haven't lived love" is what really hits home to me here, because there's plenty of life left to live and to anyone taking the time to read this who feels like I do, yours is just getting started. :3

Lyrics

Everyday I feel the same
Stuck, and I can never change
Sucked into a black balloon
Spat into an empty room
But was it really worth it?
Did I really deserve it?
It happens when you're hurtin'
It cut me out the surface
Of my heart
Of my heart-heart-heart

I'm living dead, dead, dead, dead
Only alive-live-live-live
When I pretend-tend-tend-tend
That I have died, died, died, died, died, died
I haven't lived life
I haven't lived love
Just bird's eye view
From the sky above
I'm dead, dead, dead, dead
I'm living dead, dead, dead, dead
Dead

Got bubble wrap around my heart
Waiting for my life to start
But everyday it never comes
Permanently at square one
When it's late at night-ight
I'm so dissatisfied-ied
In the wait for empty life-ife
We hassle in the moonlight
In the light
In the light-light-light

I'm living dead, dead, dead, dead
Only alive-live-live-live
When I pretend-tend-tend-tend
That I have died, died, died, died, died, died
I haven't lived life
I haven't lived love
Just bird's eye view
From the sky above
I'm dead, dead, dead, dead
I'm living dead, dead, dead, dead
Dead

I lay back in a glittery mist, and I
I think of all the men, I
I could have kissed
I haven't lived my life, I
Haven't lived love, it's just
My thoughts of you from
From up above

I'm living dead, dead, dead, dead
Only alive-live-live-live
When I pretend-tend-tend-tend
That I have died, died, died, died, died, died
I haven't lived life
I haven't lived love
Just bird's eye view
From the sky above
I'm dead, dead, dead, dead
I'm living dead, dead, dead, dead
Dead

Dead dead dead dead
Only alive-live-live-live
(I'm living dead, dead, dead, dead
Only Alive-live-live-live) x 3
Dead

Credits

Song, Lyrics, and original singer @ Marina and the Diamonds
My voice and mix @ me