The darkness creep's in and i feel more alone and afraid
I have been going through a lot but i forced the smile on my face and hide my pain from most of the world but at night when i lay awake staring at my ceiling, it haunts me. Ever thought eats away at me, ringing constant. I'm suffering in silence and i know i am my own worse enemy, picking fault with everything that is wrong about myself and my life. pointing out how i could have been better and how to make things better. but in the end of it all I'm stuck in an endless motion of self hate. watching the world around me change and i seem to stay the same. People come and they go in my life and yet i stay stuck in the black hole that i am struggling to breath and reaching for the light to shine and show me the way out of my troubles.

Sorry for the dark piece. just needed to get it off my chest. Yes i know that what i wrote maybe does not make sense. but it how i feel about a lot of things that have happened the past few months, i am trying to manage and move forward and move on. make a change for the better but when all is said and done i still remain in my own darkness.