So, if you've been following me at all for the last year, you know my life has been crashing slowly around me, and there's not much I can do about it. I'm doing my best to hold everything together... and arguably, I'm doing a terrible job of it.
With commissions... I keep getting notes from commissioners, and I'm sorry.. I am... I'm trying, but when you're having random anxiety attacks, and these spans of time where you doubt every line you put on the digital paper, it's impossible to put out the kind of quality I want to for my customers.. I hope at the very least I've been able to be kind and professional with everyone.
I'm trying to keep myself together, and presentable, and functioning, but all I want to do is sleep and drink (which is too expensive of a "hobby" to accomplish). I just want to get away from everything. I'm trying to be friendly and upbeat for everyone else's sake, but a lot of the time, I can't help but crash. I spend a lot of my alone time sobbing and panicking.
I'm sorry I've been falling apart, everyone. I land on my fat, stupid head more often than my feet these days...
With commissions... I keep getting notes from commissioners, and I'm sorry.. I am... I'm trying, but when you're having random anxiety attacks, and these spans of time where you doubt every line you put on the digital paper, it's impossible to put out the kind of quality I want to for my customers.. I hope at the very least I've been able to be kind and professional with everyone.
I'm trying to keep myself together, and presentable, and functioning, but all I want to do is sleep and drink (which is too expensive of a "hobby" to accomplish). I just want to get away from everything. I'm trying to be friendly and upbeat for everyone else's sake, but a lot of the time, I can't help but crash. I spend a lot of my alone time sobbing and panicking.
I'm sorry I've been falling apart, everyone. I land on my fat, stupid head more often than my feet these days...
Category Artwork (Digital) / General Furry Art
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Hey, this is completely out of the blue for me but I totally understand that this is a vent as it's something we all do. Your work looks great! Seriously Your lines are amazing and your characters are adorable. I'm actually a secret fan, you have a great style. ^^
I've never done commissions myself but it is something I want to get round to myself eventually. I have heard it can really stressful though.
I'm not really good at this lol and I don't know your situation or problems nor is it my business but things can and will get better, everyone has those moments. I'm stressed as hell about a few things myself. All I want to say is you'll survive, keep up the good work.
I've never done commissions myself but it is something I want to get round to myself eventually. I have heard it can really stressful though.
I'm not really good at this lol and I don't know your situation or problems nor is it my business but things can and will get better, everyone has those moments. I'm stressed as hell about a few things myself. All I want to say is you'll survive, keep up the good work.
Thank you.. Really. Praise is always fantastic.. ;w;
My situation is basically this: In the last year or so, my (very small) family has fallen apart, with my aunt and uncle getting divorced, and my uncle playing emotional games and fucking with my aunt with their kids (both of which were adopted, one of which was born addicted to drugs thanks to her mom, so she's already someone that shouldn't be fucked with like this). My dad had a stroke, my mom has almost died twice, and because she wound up in the hospital for so long, she lost her job and we have no form of income, so we're way behind on all the bills, including the house payments, so we could be homeless within the next few months. These aren't just "stress moments" because my art is being stressful or money's tight. I've nearly lost the entirety of my family, and am in the process of losing my home.
Maybe things will get better someday, but as things stand right now... I'm not seeing any kind of way out.
My situation is basically this: In the last year or so, my (very small) family has fallen apart, with my aunt and uncle getting divorced, and my uncle playing emotional games and fucking with my aunt with their kids (both of which were adopted, one of which was born addicted to drugs thanks to her mom, so she's already someone that shouldn't be fucked with like this). My dad had a stroke, my mom has almost died twice, and because she wound up in the hospital for so long, she lost her job and we have no form of income, so we're way behind on all the bills, including the house payments, so we could be homeless within the next few months. These aren't just "stress moments" because my art is being stressful or money's tight. I've nearly lost the entirety of my family, and am in the process of losing my home.
Maybe things will get better someday, but as things stand right now... I'm not seeing any kind of way out.
If I had a twin we'd both be praising your work lol and share a single identity so we can swap shifts at work. Genius!
Wow, that sucks. So sorry to hear about your recent events. You really don't have to apologize for things that aren't your fault. I think the people will understand why their commissions are late once aware of your situation.
If I had the money I'd throw it at the laptop right now. 0-0
I don't know your uncle but he sounds like such a bigoted fandan. Reminds me of my dad, ha ha.I know what it's it's like to be thrown out of your own home, I've had a few bad moments myself back in my high school days but I'll spare you the details. The important thing is that you're still standing and it's not too late. I'm sure your friends will help if you ask. Just talk to them though. Pushing them away sometimes is fine but you need them more than ever at moments like these to keep sane.
All I can say is there's nothing wrong with crying, if you need to, Just do it. As long as you get back up and continue on to fight then its okay. Your folks are needing to see you smile more than anything right now. You might need to get a job if you don't have one. Hell if it was me my gallery would be filled with vent art.
Sorry I can't do more than offer advice you already know. Always remember you have friends and fans that appreciate what you do here.
Wow, that sucks. So sorry to hear about your recent events. You really don't have to apologize for things that aren't your fault. I think the people will understand why their commissions are late once aware of your situation.
If I had the money I'd throw it at the laptop right now. 0-0
I don't know your uncle but he sounds like such a bigoted fandan. Reminds me of my dad, ha ha.I know what it's it's like to be thrown out of your own home, I've had a few bad moments myself back in my high school days but I'll spare you the details. The important thing is that you're still standing and it's not too late. I'm sure your friends will help if you ask. Just talk to them though. Pushing them away sometimes is fine but you need them more than ever at moments like these to keep sane.
All I can say is there's nothing wrong with crying, if you need to, Just do it. As long as you get back up and continue on to fight then its okay. Your folks are needing to see you smile more than anything right now. You might need to get a job if you don't have one. Hell if it was me my gallery would be filled with vent art.
Sorry I can't do more than offer advice you already know. Always remember you have friends and fans that appreciate what you do here.
Well, with the girls, they aren't being kicked out of the house.. they're... I think one of them is 11 now, and the other is.. 7? Something like that, and so they have no say in which parent they stay with, and because Gary bitched the loudest first, it was dictated that he's the better parent, so he has custody and never lets her see her kids, even though he's an absolute shit parent.
For me, because I'm an introvert, having people around too much tends to just drive me even more insane and overwhelm me and make me mad.
For me, because I'm an introvert, having people around too much tends to just drive me even more insane and overwhelm me and make me mad.
Where I'm from in Scotland he'd be given a lot of grief by the locals. It's a standard we have here. It's part on an ex-mining community, and it can be rough but we stand by each other in certain scenarios. :o
I'm introverted myself and it's kinda a perk when you're an artist work wise, kinda gives me the endurance to work longer on my own.
I'm introverted myself and it's kinda a perk when you're an artist work wise, kinda gives me the endurance to work longer on my own.
Toby, things might be going poorly for you, even horribly from my knowledge.. But you're a strong person, anybody in your situation would be having anxiety attacks, would probably be losing their mind and absolutely panicking. You're still keeping yourself together for the most part, you've been staying strong, you're still in one piece, and you're doing a good job of it. You just need to stay strong and hope for the best and do everything you can to make things better.
As for commissions, they might be taking a bit of time, sure. But it's for good reason, you've got more to deal with than anybody commissioning you, I can promise you that. If you need time to rest, and relax, and pull yourself together at times or need some time alone to think, it's completely understandable. And if they don't get that well then.. it's their problem, not yours. You've got enough problems as it is, and you're doing your best. You've been professional about it, you've been slowly but steadily getting through your commissions. Don't worry about it.
But Toby if you need a day every now and then to unwind, sleep in, and relax.. you more than deserve it. You just need to make a plan, stick to it, and try and get through this. It's not your fault that you're feeling down, it's natural to anybody in your kind of situation. Just please know that you have friends here to help you, you're sweet, you're kind, you're caring and generous and charitable, you're an all around amazing and wonderful person and you don't' deserve anything that's been happening to you.
There's nothing to be sorry, and even if you land on your face rather than your feet, your friends will always be here to help pick you back up again, it's what we're here for <=3 If there's anything in the world I can possibly do to help, I'm on Skype 'n I'll be here all day 'n I'm here if you need me <=3 *Picks you up and huggles you close* <3
As for commissions, they might be taking a bit of time, sure. But it's for good reason, you've got more to deal with than anybody commissioning you, I can promise you that. If you need time to rest, and relax, and pull yourself together at times or need some time alone to think, it's completely understandable. And if they don't get that well then.. it's their problem, not yours. You've got enough problems as it is, and you're doing your best. You've been professional about it, you've been slowly but steadily getting through your commissions. Don't worry about it.
But Toby if you need a day every now and then to unwind, sleep in, and relax.. you more than deserve it. You just need to make a plan, stick to it, and try and get through this. It's not your fault that you're feeling down, it's natural to anybody in your kind of situation. Just please know that you have friends here to help you, you're sweet, you're kind, you're caring and generous and charitable, you're an all around amazing and wonderful person and you don't' deserve anything that's been happening to you.
There's nothing to be sorry, and even if you land on your face rather than your feet, your friends will always be here to help pick you back up again, it's what we're here for <=3 If there's anything in the world I can possibly do to help, I'm on Skype 'n I'll be here all day 'n I'm here if you need me <=3 *Picks you up and huggles you close* <3
Well, even if we don't manage to talk too much, but let me know if I can help someway .w. Though after reading the reasons I don't think I can help too much...anyhow you have my support!
As for commissions, I think you can give what people want from you. Also, I bet most of commissioners would understand your situation and will be patient. So, don't worry and try to keep your head up :3
As for commissions, I think you can give what people want from you. Also, I bet most of commissioners would understand your situation and will be patient. So, don't worry and try to keep your head up :3
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