Yeah.. People likely label me "tempermental." That's because they're pricks and don't know shit about me.
Truly, I think I'm more "oversensitive" (..or hormonal.. ). All kinds of shit bugs me, especially little shit. I get tore the fuck up over little comments.
But.
I'm not the kind of person to stir the pot, at least not intentionally.
No one likes a whiner. I don't want to look like one. So. I keep to myself. Shit that bugs me? Bottled. Left to fester. I sit and brood and read too deeply into things said to me because I'm too much an antisocial coward to say anything.
So I sit and frown at the world. Which isn't outwardly harmful to anyone but myself.
';Parently no one cares enough to simply ask "What's wrong?" Y'know, get the ball rolling. I'm seriously bad at starting things myself, true story, was raised with people doing things for me because I was afraid. I don't even like to use the fucking telephone I'm so damn shy.
But hey, when I'm clearly upset, I get "Hey stop being a bitch" instead of a cathartic conversation. Hurts worse coming from folks I thought were friends.
Hurts even worse when they label me and then stop responding.
I fucking need closure. Without it I just simmer and make assumptions inside my head and make the walls fall in on myself.
I. Hurt. Easily.
Water's my element. Ruled by emotions, not my head. It's a flaw. I accept it, but changing it's damn hard. You think I 'ent tried?
If you gotta beef with me, for the gods' sakes, TALK TO ME. Ask me things, let me ask you things. CLOSURE, DAMMIT. Don't let it sit and rot or it won't end well for anyone.
Communication is key.
...
I had fish for dinner... It's not sitting well..
I'ma go lay down now.. :C
Truly, I think I'm more "oversensitive" (..or hormonal.. ). All kinds of shit bugs me, especially little shit. I get tore the fuck up over little comments.
But.
I'm not the kind of person to stir the pot, at least not intentionally.
No one likes a whiner. I don't want to look like one. So. I keep to myself. Shit that bugs me? Bottled. Left to fester. I sit and brood and read too deeply into things said to me because I'm too much an antisocial coward to say anything.
So I sit and frown at the world. Which isn't outwardly harmful to anyone but myself.
';Parently no one cares enough to simply ask "What's wrong?" Y'know, get the ball rolling. I'm seriously bad at starting things myself, true story, was raised with people doing things for me because I was afraid. I don't even like to use the fucking telephone I'm so damn shy.
But hey, when I'm clearly upset, I get "Hey stop being a bitch" instead of a cathartic conversation. Hurts worse coming from folks I thought were friends.
Hurts even worse when they label me and then stop responding.
I fucking need closure. Without it I just simmer and make assumptions inside my head and make the walls fall in on myself.
I. Hurt. Easily.
Water's my element. Ruled by emotions, not my head. It's a flaw. I accept it, but changing it's damn hard. You think I 'ent tried?
If you gotta beef with me, for the gods' sakes, TALK TO ME. Ask me things, let me ask you things. CLOSURE, DAMMIT. Don't let it sit and rot or it won't end well for anyone.
Communication is key.
...
I had fish for dinner... It's not sitting well..
I'ma go lay down now.. :C
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Kangaroo
Size 425 x 442px
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i dunno. Every time i've talked to you you've been excedingly pleasant to talk to. Whoever's saying this about you must be doing everything right to piss you off. And well if you are an irritating person you are bound to find a lot of angry people. But you're a great person to talk to. So whowever's telling you this.. kick their asses.
This is a really nice picture, I love the details and shading of it. The face and over all body language is dead on for the emotion you picked. The background is somewhat humorous to me. All in all this is a cool picture.
As for the way you feel; it would bother me too. The best thing to do would to be to watch something funny or read a book to cheer you up. I wish I could help you more, but I don't know you to well, sadly. I hope you feel better real soon.
As for the way you feel; it would bother me too. The best thing to do would to be to watch something funny or read a book to cheer you up. I wish I could help you more, but I don't know you to well, sadly. I hope you feel better real soon.
fuck dem bitches! you r a really good artist n people who dont understand u should keep their damn mouths shut! i definitely know how u feel been there a time or twelve myself. i too have the communication disorder, but like u with a little friendly probing i come along. real friends will give u that nudge. i hope things get better for u!
*hugs* I was mostly trying to stay out of your hair at RCFM since you were so busy arting usually it looked like. Hope I didn't come off as 'blowing you off' or avoiding you or anything?
Speaking of closure, someone mentioned you'd be uploading the RCFM badges at some point? Or did I mis-hear? I'd love to get the digital file for mine to use as a spraypaint in Team Fortress 2, as goofy as that probably sounds. =^.^=
Speaking of closure, someone mentioned you'd be uploading the RCFM badges at some point? Or did I mis-hear? I'd love to get the digital file for mine to use as a spraypaint in Team Fortress 2, as goofy as that probably sounds. =^.^=
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