"I'm not that good. But I'm working to it. I know that point where everyone will enjoy my art is out there. It's not that far that I can't see it. I just have to keep going. I'm not a hopeless mess. I'm just working my way there. Awesomeness is in front of me i just need to keep going. I'm almost there..."

explanation here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5353527/