i dont remember a day
i have ever live out a full life
other than to just be sacrificed
to the damnation and desolation of suicide
at the left hand a god
i will never amount to anything
never to be set free
stuck in a stizo paranoia mind
a suicidal disease that breeds
like a rapturous plague
from gods fallen son
in the end damnation was there
because everything i do will not mean anything
neater do i maybe i am anesthetized
by the torment and the pain
iv concord so many inner demons
and the ghost that haunt me day by day
i left them all behind
till i hit each new road
to be stuck at a dead mans tail
some say this is the challenge of god
i say this is life eternal
a disease that leave the desolation of my soul
a internal damnation of the body and thee mind
raped of being ones self and never to live out a life
with out leading a lie just to be anesthetized
this is my order of gods fallen son
the battle of yin and yang
guess who won this day
that would be yin who left yang to hang this day
i will crucify life it self to be set free
is death my only release
because i am god forsaken