I have no close irl friends so I often feel alone especially when it seems as it often does my skype friends are only talking to each other and not me. I have no life and no abilities or skills, I'm not really capable of much anything the 1 ability I have is my cub voice which yesterday I was told got deeper (my regular voice is deep and I hate this about it so it made me even more sad) and lately my moms been yelling at me over everything (dad too but thats not as bad) she has brought up alot of the things I hate about myself (mainly weight and uselessness in so so many ways)and saying everything I do and all my stuff is getting in the way of her and it just makes me feel so useless unloved and alone. I run to skype for friendship but most of my friends barely join call and those who do only seem to talk to each other and the subject of conversation is never anything I can be a part of so I just kind of sit there waiting to be part of it 90 percent of the time The reason I dressed my fursona in something particularly cute here is because lately I've taken to trying to be extra cute (in voice) to get attention which works a bit I guess they react sometimes but it doesn't real make me part of the conversation or get them to play the online games with me I ask to all the time like we used to. When theres 3 people in our calls it's also become common for the other 2 to private chat and leave me till the nights nearly over it's usually already late then but it still hurts. I want nothing more then an irl best friend to play with but that doesn't seem likely as I'm shy and I can't even drive so I'm always home. That little cub there is me right now and I really want a hug.

I gave this picture my all at every level added texturing (the floor uses a texture and a seperate layer for color) and even shading which I never do because I really wanted to put all my emotion in this I'm just feeling really awful right now but a little crying and drawing this did help some

I'm just tired of holding it in