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Growing up, my mom would always tell me that the green eyed monster was coming out of me.
She meant, I was becoming jealous or envious.
Now that I'm older, I don't find myself to be that way very often but when I do, it's about people. Not things.
It's a very lonely feeling.
Very angry.
Very sad.
Very haunting.
It's like I'm consumed by a darkness and I can't breathe. If I do, I breathe in the toxicity of my own greed.
So, I shut down.
I push it away.
Hide it with a smile and with laughter.
Tell you that I am okay.
Say that I am happy for you.
When in truth
All I want
Is you to be mine
Or for what you have to be mine.
Lately I've hit a really rough patch in life
I've lost so much
So much love
So much respect for myself
This Jealousy is wrapped in a thick layer of
Self-loathing and Self-hatred
I'm told not to sell myself short
Yet everyone seems to sell me short
I know I could be more
Could be better
I just don't want to.
I want things my way.
Not your way, or his way, or her way.
Mine.
This is pure greed
That's jealousy.
Wrath, lust, gluttony, pride, envy, greed
Okay, enough rambling and puking my emotions everywhere.
It's time for school
Time for real life.
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She meant, I was becoming jealous or envious.
Now that I'm older, I don't find myself to be that way very often but when I do, it's about people. Not things.
It's a very lonely feeling.
Very angry.
Very sad.
Very haunting.
It's like I'm consumed by a darkness and I can't breathe. If I do, I breathe in the toxicity of my own greed.
So, I shut down.
I push it away.
Hide it with a smile and with laughter.
Tell you that I am okay.
Say that I am happy for you.
When in truth
All I want
Is you to be mine
Or for what you have to be mine.
Lately I've hit a really rough patch in life
I've lost so much
So much love
So much respect for myself
This Jealousy is wrapped in a thick layer of
Self-loathing and Self-hatred
I'm told not to sell myself short
Yet everyone seems to sell me short
I know I could be more
Could be better
I just don't want to.
I want things my way.
Not your way, or his way, or her way.
Mine.
This is pure greed
That's jealousy.
Wrath, lust, gluttony, pride, envy, greed
Okay, enough rambling and puking my emotions everywhere.
It's time for school
Time for real life.
Art © Me
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