You know what. I can't take this anymore. I don't even know what or who I am. I'm just going to let it out. I'm going to confess everything that i have been holding back for a really long time. Actually, im just going to say every single thing i hate about myself that no one will understand. I'm a stupid, most worthless and useless of a friend. Those who i love, have been there for me when i needed help. but like the stupid fucker and useless person i am, i will start talking to them like time to time, everyday if i have too! I would just be there for them, every step of the way. I love them so much. i care for them like they were the brothers and sisters i ever wanted. They helped me when i needed them and i helped them when they needed me. i was always positive..but sometimes i can be depressed and insane when i really want to confess or go in depression. But now, i dont even know anymore. If your a close friend who's reading this, i just wanted to make this whole thing for you to read the truth about me. Like i said before, i loved you guys so much. call me crazy and psycho, but its the truth. but what also is the truth is, ever since we met, we were all connected in a one big group. remember? we used to share laughs, we would talk to each other every single day like there's no tomorrow. but then ever since the years has past, we were slowly separating away. I always wondered if i was the only one that noticed..but before that happened, some of you had feelings for each other. And i respect that alot. But when you guys started to become more close, i was starting to become scared and think you guys will be better without me. Sorry if i'm making you guys feel sad or any other way. but this is the truth. I was honestly heartbroken. I didn't know why i was, i just felt a sudden pain in my heart, but i knew the reason why that happened. I was just scared of losing you guys. I was a fool back years ago. I was being such a cry baby. Im guessing you thought i was and still am now, huh?...yeah. Anyways, long after i got over that silly reason, i was being strong. You guys helped me . You encouraged me. But now like i said, we are separating. All of us are growing up and learning new experiences. But at that same time, i'm already losing you guys already. It felt like a few weeks ago we were chatting 24/7. I guess you still think im being childish right now...Im sorry but im NOT saying that its your fault! It's always my fault. I'm the one who should be sorry to you guys. I'm such a fuckin pussy to not even talk to any of you anymore!!!. I have so much emotions that controlling all causes me to break down. WELL I'M THE ONE WHO CAUSED US TO COME APART. ME. And im so so sorry...but i see you guys are still talking and still best friends...Just without me. It's fine. these things happen to me alot. Ill be venting again about the same fucking reason and sooner or later, ill take my mind of it, but i might come back to it again. But ill be the same scared, worthless, life wasting friend like i am now. But its ok. im fine. ill always end up in tears by trying to confess. SEE. NOW YOU SEE WHO CLAW REALLY IS??? SHES A LIFE WASTING OF A FRIEND. SHE WON'T TALK TO YOU. SHE'LL JUST GO AHEAD AND VENT AGAIN AND SAY THE SAME FUCKING REASON WHY SHE'S VENTING. AND SHE'LL BE WHIMP LIKE SHE ALWAYS IS...I AM WORTHLESS! I AM JUST A NOBODY THAT WILL BE THERE BUT WILL BE INVISIBLE TO YOU. IM JUST A WASTE OF YOUR TIME. YOU'RE ALREADY BETTER WITHOUT ME. IM SO SORRY. ITs...all my fault. I dont want to keep this from you anymore.Im so sorry...i truely am. im so sorry u hurt you, im so sorry for everything. i regret everything. im so sorry i hurt you guys. i never wanted to hurt you. i just love you too much that it hurts. im sorry. im a waste of life. But who am i?.......Im just a nobody.