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Dont act like your feelings are more important than others. You whine about a scratch that was left on your heart while mine boasts a gash.
There are so many bitter things i wish to say to some people, but i bite my tongue as i am trying to be the bigger man, but who ever came up with such a cliche term? Are we, human beings, not allowed to express our anger because we will be seen as "childish" for allowing our emotions to over flow. To be a bigger man means we have to bottle up our anger and sorrow to make others feel more comfortable?
You howl and whine because I left you? You howl because I wanted to be happy? You know you dragged me through hell and back for 6 painfully long years. I tried to be happy, i fought and dug around for love. I tried to show you how i loved you more than the world, and you blew me off. And you're mad at me because i LEFT YOU? When you left me long before hand?! I am happy now, i dont care how you feel any more. I tried to be supportive, i tried to show i still cared for your happiness, i dont even vent to people about how angry your hypocritical words make me, but because i want to be the bigger man, i have to keep all this over flowing anger inside. And now im ready to erupt, i wish i could spit these bitter words at your face, make you suffer like you made me suffer for all those long years.
Now you want me back because you dont have what you were comfortable with, now your life is so miserable because you cant "find happiness without me." Well that sucks, because i found my happiness and he builds me up and keeps me high, above the clouds and towards the stars. Every day he makes me smile, every day he proves his worth, while you wanted to rise, you let me fall. You let me fall hard. You kept me down and made me burn, left me with scars and bruises. And, unlike you, i picked myself up from the bottom, i climbed back to the top to show i am not a mutt who allows itself to be abused for its pretend world of happiness. I am strong. I am Me, and yes, this is really lame to write. But these things need to be said, and while i know you will never see these words, i hope one day you stumble upon them so that you can see how i suffer and hide away to prove that i can still be happy for you. That i still wish the best for you. You offer a hand of friendship, and i happily accepted it, but you do what all friends do. You spit on me, you stab my back, and walk away.
Simply because you can never be the bigger man.
There are so many bitter things i wish to say to some people, but i bite my tongue as i am trying to be the bigger man, but who ever came up with such a cliche term? Are we, human beings, not allowed to express our anger because we will be seen as "childish" for allowing our emotions to over flow. To be a bigger man means we have to bottle up our anger and sorrow to make others feel more comfortable?
You howl and whine because I left you? You howl because I wanted to be happy? You know you dragged me through hell and back for 6 painfully long years. I tried to be happy, i fought and dug around for love. I tried to show you how i loved you more than the world, and you blew me off. And you're mad at me because i LEFT YOU? When you left me long before hand?! I am happy now, i dont care how you feel any more. I tried to be supportive, i tried to show i still cared for your happiness, i dont even vent to people about how angry your hypocritical words make me, but because i want to be the bigger man, i have to keep all this over flowing anger inside. And now im ready to erupt, i wish i could spit these bitter words at your face, make you suffer like you made me suffer for all those long years.
Now you want me back because you dont have what you were comfortable with, now your life is so miserable because you cant "find happiness without me." Well that sucks, because i found my happiness and he builds me up and keeps me high, above the clouds and towards the stars. Every day he makes me smile, every day he proves his worth, while you wanted to rise, you let me fall. You let me fall hard. You kept me down and made me burn, left me with scars and bruises. And, unlike you, i picked myself up from the bottom, i climbed back to the top to show i am not a mutt who allows itself to be abused for its pretend world of happiness. I am strong. I am Me, and yes, this is really lame to write. But these things need to be said, and while i know you will never see these words, i hope one day you stumble upon them so that you can see how i suffer and hide away to prove that i can still be happy for you. That i still wish the best for you. You offer a hand of friendship, and i happily accepted it, but you do what all friends do. You spit on me, you stab my back, and walk away.
Simply because you can never be the bigger man.
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(This sounds kind of awkward cause I'm not sure how to write what I'm feeling. Like, it's kind of hard to beat what you wrote, it's really, really right. Not just only for you, but I think a lot of people could relate with similar situations. For me, the first paragraph makes a lot of sense. It all does. If you're happy, be happy, if you want to be angry or sad, don't cover it up to please people who aren't good to you.)
I'm glad that you realized things about your relationship, even though it turned out bad. By doing so, things changed for you towards a better and new start. Even though we lurk a lot now, I don't like seeing you feel down, so I'm relieved you found someone who will be there for you and see the light at the end of the tunnel each time. Just try to keep growing as people together and stay on the same level/page (no one on a pedestal who you have to bend for, but instead agree to make compromises with as a partner).
It's not unreasonable to be upset. It was a long time spent together, a huge change happened, it's not like you're making a big deal out of some small thing. Friends are there so you don't have to suffer alone, they can tell when you're hiding something to avoid "burdening them" and it makes them worry, too.
I don't think "being a better man" necessarily means not saying how you feel. It just means doing what's right/moral from your standpoint versus someone else's. Instead of exploding at someone about your problem or continue over-thinking it, try telling the person exactly how you feel without being too emotionally charged (which is easier said than done). Just say what you have to as civil and as short as you can and be sure to end it by being honest so you don't have to keep suffering.
I'm glad that you realized things about your relationship, even though it turned out bad. By doing so, things changed for you towards a better and new start. Even though we lurk a lot now, I don't like seeing you feel down, so I'm relieved you found someone who will be there for you and see the light at the end of the tunnel each time. Just try to keep growing as people together and stay on the same level/page (no one on a pedestal who you have to bend for, but instead agree to make compromises with as a partner).
It's not unreasonable to be upset. It was a long time spent together, a huge change happened, it's not like you're making a big deal out of some small thing. Friends are there so you don't have to suffer alone, they can tell when you're hiding something to avoid "burdening them" and it makes them worry, too.
I don't think "being a better man" necessarily means not saying how you feel. It just means doing what's right/moral from your standpoint versus someone else's. Instead of exploding at someone about your problem or continue over-thinking it, try telling the person exactly how you feel without being too emotionally charged (which is easier said than done). Just say what you have to as civil and as short as you can and be sure to end it by being honest so you don't have to keep suffering.
thank you love for taking the time to comment <:3 Oddly enough i have told him what bugs me but he still clings so tightly to the past that he wont let go and move on. Im happy and i wanted him to be happy but all hes been doing for the past year is causing drama over the past V~V i know its not something to easily get over but its been a year, and i cant say thats more than enough time to heal cause each person is different, but it should have done something <:c.
And i guess your right, but during the whole time everyone says "be the bigger person, be the bigger person" because im supposed to pretend like him being offensive and calling be bitter names doesnt hurt me. I'm supposed to pretend that i dont care about what he lies and makes up to my friends, and if i act else wise they consider me childish. I also wanted to give him a 3rd chance, not something i take lightly, and try to be his friend again and support him still, but it seems that even asking for that of him is way to much, he was the one who wanted us to be friends again, simply agreed to his terms.
I dont know, angel, <:c i dont know, i want to be happy all the time, i am with Andrew, but when i think about the bitter things being whispered behind my back it makes my blood boil.
And i guess your right, but during the whole time everyone says "be the bigger person, be the bigger person" because im supposed to pretend like him being offensive and calling be bitter names doesnt hurt me. I'm supposed to pretend that i dont care about what he lies and makes up to my friends, and if i act else wise they consider me childish. I also wanted to give him a 3rd chance, not something i take lightly, and try to be his friend again and support him still, but it seems that even asking for that of him is way to much, he was the one who wanted us to be friends again, simply agreed to his terms.
I dont know, angel, <:c i dont know, i want to be happy all the time, i am with Andrew, but when i think about the bitter things being whispered behind my back it makes my blood boil.
Maybe you should just not talk to him (at least for an extended amount of time to show him you're serious) if you didn't want to /really/ talk to him and only did so to be nice. It feels weird when someone leaves your life, but sometimes you just don't get along and it's better to not make the "relationship" get any worse. When it happens to us, we have a really hard time getting over someone and can't stop thinking about it (reguardless if the person was mostly nice or overbearing and making us uncomfortable), so maybe he's got a personality like that where he can't let it go compared to you? But it's not really your "problem" anymore since you tried to deal with him so much before and it probably wouldn't convince him to think otherwise. /:
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