Congratulations on basically reciting Faq's.
As for lonelyness, it's just in your head. You don't need love as much as you think you do, you just want acceptance and part of that comes from being loved by another person.
Or thats me pushing my beliefs on someone again, either way realize that in the moment you are accepted.

if one does not love it could mean that ones heart isn't working correctly. That is often the case in people who have been through social hell. People are often batered to the point where it no longer flows for sake of self defense. That one knows one desires love is proof that love endures. Love will rebuild, love will find its way if only given a chance to do so. Wise are the wary, but foolish are those that wall themselves off. Find your way. Let love rule. Let it overcome what was done in hate. Don't believe the lies hate attacks with. You are worthy same as all of happiness and acceptance. This one has been destroyed but lives as proof.

^-^ Thankya, you helped me feel better now.