Time again already to olden the lizr, hwaoh 🦎🎉
I guess these have become a kind of annual check-in given how infrequently I make journals anymore, heh. And a lot has changed since the last one, admittedly, which I keep thinking won't be true year after year.

I have to admit, this one was a bit rough at times. Been through some of the biggest changes and events I'd ever expect in this yearly period, both good and bad. Some I may delve into more properly in future times, but for now I'm just glad to be able to move forward past things I didn't know I needed to. Though I'm still waning on artistic productivity, due to both mental and physical limitations, ones I'm not really sure when will let up (though I suppose that's not too far outside the norm for such things). Still, I'm here keeping on, 37 years on, and I don't plan on stopping anytime soon at the very least.

Turns out I've got another identity update too, same as last year. I touched on it briefly in the Trans Visibility post earlier this year, but I think a more proper announcement is in order, since I wanna stop being so cagey with such things.

I've decided going fully she/her transfem is the best fit for myself currently, after quite a lot of introspection and encouragement from many amazing people 🦎⚧♀️💚. Ironically the decision's been cooking since almost right after my announcement of being non-binary last year, which I guess is about how long it takes me to figure out I'm really sure about something like this. It's a big decision to be fair, though, and I've always been very cautious about such things, sometimes to my own detriment. But I got there in the end, is the really important part, as it is for all of us. Though I don't think I'll fully shed the enby label just yet, as there's still a few things I think I'm sort of inbetween on, but that shouldn't stop me from presenting more female in terms of pronouns and expression, I think.

I don't yet have the means to seek out HRT, and admittedly a lot of things going on in the last year or so have made me extremely cautious about being public with this sort of thing in the real world space, but at the very least I can pursue a better social presentation of myself that aligns with what I realized I really do want🦎💚💚.

Thanks again for everyone that's been there, even if I haven't been around as much as I'd like to. 🦎💚🎉

I'm gonna girl it up so hard you have no idea 🦎♀️⚧🎉🎈💚