It better be better then last year. 2025 went by too fast and was terrible with all the shite that happened in the world.

My 2026 aint gonna start off all that great either, January brings more work at work for not more pay, rent increased because of the budget thats coming up in April in my country. We working class peons are being punished by having everything going up yet again because the rich idiots in charge have to pay more tax for their stupid stolen mcmansions.

I'm gonna try to pursuit my twitch streaming more so this year so i have at least some sort of safety net if work becomes too much for me to handle, my left knee locks up more then it should these days making work actually harder to do then it should be, not great for one who works in grocery retail and has to run around for lazy people who cant be assed to come to the store and always order when im physically busy with either store delivery or actual people. I really do want to stop working in retail but sadly, no other jobs in my town since they are either work for free for ai prompts or this job doesnt actually exist bullshit for companies to keep getting government grants for lying.

I honestly have been struggling for a while and its a joke with how much I work yet I have nothing to show for it. Money is a bad joke and might as well not exist from how worthless it is. You go to the store these days and for £20 you get like a few ready meals, one thing of eggs, one packet of bacon, a loaf of bread and maybe some cheap cold cuts and cheese. And thats all used up in 3 days at best. and the quality is terrible, it makes you crave more because it doesnt fill you up. I'm tired of being paycheck to paycheck. I'm tired of working my ass off for nothing. I want to be my own boss. I want to earn ALL the money for myself, not for a meger amount each month because someone has decided im worth that much only because they have to.

I'm going to make 2026 better for myself, I'm going to stream more when im able to. I'm going to try to make my life more balanced, more execise, more saving up money (i have been doing this since last year which is why I'm not losing my mind and having a mental break down, money is a massive trigger for my mental health, the less i have the more i see people able to buy things, even the basics that i need and i cant sets me off big time.)

I want stablity, my job isnt stable, im at my minimum contracted hours most weeks because the company doesnt want to pay wages, it just wants to make money but wants you to work even harder for no extra pay because "these are acceptable and reasonable additions to your workload and responablites that dont require more pay". No, making me have to deal with 2 more online store apps is more work that requires more pay when you expect me to stock the shop, deal with people, tidy up, run the front of house, face up the shop for the next day. I dont have the time to run around for these online apps to gather some lazy persons groceries without tips and extra pay, i dont work for the couriers who 8/10 times are ok but those 2/10 times they act as if i work for them. Dude if i work for you, you owe me 2 hours min of my freelancer rate, you cant afford me so dont be a dick.

I get most of this is me venting on here but I really do want a better life. I'm tired of being working class, always kept down by the elites because i wasnt born with a silver spoon in my mouth. I'm trying but everything seems to want to screw me over. Things outside of my control and I just want to feel as if im stable and in control of something.